One Of The Most Humble Men I've Ever Known

One of the most humble men I've ever know. Who is he? He is my Pastor at Oikos church Singapore, Ps. Yakub Surya. Jadi pengen sedikit cerita mengenai beliau, and what lesson I learned from him.

Jadi ceritanya, kan saya ke semarang kondangan Ci Lenna married, anak Oikos Singapore juga. Terus sepulangnya dari resepsi, kita pada mau ke Pecinan. Beberapa dari kita decided untuk gak pulang hotel dan ganti baju karena bakal lama lagi takut keburu tutup, dan langsung ke TKP. Ya udah donk ya, kebayang ga si, gw ama anita pake dress pake heels naek becak wkwk. Dan yang lebih parahnya lagi kita gak ada yang bawa duit. Soalnya kan awalnya gak kepikiran buat langsung ke pecinan.

Pecinan tuh daerahnya kaya chinatown di Singapore gitu deh, kek pasar malem yang banyak jual makanan. Hehe. Terus secara kita gak bawa duit sepeserpun, ya udah deh minta tolong ko Yakub bayarin. Haha, gila banget gak sih kalo dipikir-pikir. Bisa ngutang sama pastor -.- kita juga jajan es and makanan kecil-kecil, tapi untunglah Ko Y nyusul dan dia bawain duit.

Terus pas lagi jalan disepanjang jalan liat makanan, Anita bilang tuh ada siomay tuh tapi gak ada yang ngalahin siomaynya ko Yakub. Bener banget loh, siomay ko Yakub enak banget bokk!! Ikannnya berasa banget.

Flash back ke sekitar 3 tahun yang lalu. 
Lagi makan siomay ko Yakub, dan saya makannya nambah terus banyak :P Ada ci Pina, ci Pina bilang sekarang siomaynya ko Yakub udah enak gak kenyel lagi. Dulu pas beberapa taon lalu, pas ko Yakub masi kuliah di Singapore kan duitnya terbatas, jadi siomaynya kenyel banget. Ikan sama tepungnya banyakan tepungnya. Dan gw ngakak dengernya. Wkwkwk.

Dan kemaren pas Anita nyinggung soal siomay, gw bilang ke ko Yakub. Ko, katanya dulu siomay koko kenyel banget ya. Ko Yakub sambil ketawa-tawa cerita, iya dulu pas jaman kuliah masih kere, ikannya secuil tepungnya segepok, sampe cicinya Ci Pina bilang ini ngunyah kok ga selsa-selsai. Wakakakak gw geli abis.

Tapi one thing gw learn, gak peduli seberapa kere or tajirna ko Yakub tapi yang penting hatinya bok. Gw bener-bener merasa dikasihi banget sama Ko Yakub en family ketika gw masih di Sing. Ko Yakub tau gw paling suka bubur madura pake sambel uler, jadi kadang dia purposely masakin gw. Dan sampe di smsin, Ci Yenny si Bu Gem juga gitu.

Gw juga jarang kontekan intens gitu ama ko Yakub, tapi pas kemaren ketemu masih bisa cerita ngalor ngidul sampe gak tau malu pinjem duit minta bayarin naek becak wkwkw. Awalnya ketika Ko Yakub pindah ke Sing, gw biasa aja dan gak deket juga. Pernah sleg dikit malah. Tapi lama-lama berubah.. ya karena, hatinya sih.. Well, sometimes people dont care how much you know until they know how much you care.  Jadi inget quote yang bilang, rendahkanlah dirimu serendah-rendahnya sampai orang dari berbgai kalangan bisa masuk. Kalo dipikir-pikir gw loh bukan jemaat oikos lagi, dan pas dulu disana pun gw bukan orang penting banget. Tapi still, gw dapet perhatian yang sama. Dari hatinya, saya belajar. Baik didalam kekurangan dan kelimpahan pun tetap terus jadi berkat :D

Lesson Learned: Taking Him For Granted

My very first lesson learned :D Refer from my post here. Pas lagi baca-baca diary, terus ketemu halaman ini. Udah dari February lalu haha. Gambarnya mesti di klik biar bisa baca jelas, maklum tulisan saya super mini. 

What's written there yah basically gw say sorry to God kalo selama ini baik secara sadar atau tidak sadar saya take Ko Y for granted. Apa yang dimaksud dengan taking him for granted? Jadi yah, kalo gw lagi bete bad mood spanning tinggi tingkat dewa dewi. Biasanya yang selalu kena itu Ko Y. Dia bisa gw sensiin, gw jutekin, gw galakin or even parahnya gw diemin.

Praise God gw udah jadi lebih sadar, kalo gw sering menjadikan Ko Y pelampiasan gw selama ini. Ini gw capture dan simpen karena disana dia bilang, kenapa aku kena lagi, aku apes banget. Ini suatu tamparan banget buat gw!! Sama yang dia bilang, aku bisa di betein, aku harus siap-siap. Uhhh gw langsung kaya ketiban batu!! Aslinya ini tuh gw bete karena gw stress cari frame gitu, uda lama si casenya. Tapi masi tetep gw simpen soalnya reminder banget! Kata-kata dia walo ditulis dengan baik tanpa ada kesan marah or menyindir, bener-bener nyadarin gw betapa jahat dan kezamnya gw LOL.

Kenapa harus Ko Y? Karena gw tau he is the one that very understanding that patience enough when it comes to handle nagging me. He is the one who always faithful enough to listen all my grumbles and complains. And he really know how to chill me down, which is.. to fully lend an ears that truly listened and concern.

Cewe yah, sensitif banget kan. Kalo lagi bad mood, ada satu or dua hal aja yang gak berjalan dengan semestinya, bisa langsung bikin gw bete abis. Apalagi kalo PMS!! I used to be believe kalo benernya PMS doesnt exists, why? Coz happiness is a choice. We have the ability to choose to be happy, despite how painful the PMS is. Tapi gimana donk, kadang beneran deh PMS tuh bikin sensi jadi naik tingkat dewa haha. Semua cewe yang setuju angkat tangan! And I can hear all the boys shout, woman is truly complicated. HAHA.

Terus kemaren itu setelah saya jutekin dia (untuk kesekian kalinya) gw minta maap. Ko maap ya aku tadi bete gak jelas. Terus dia nanya, aku salah apa? Gw jawab, gak sih aku yang salah kamu gak salah apa-apa. Dia nanya lagi, kamu lagi dapet ya? Gw jawab kagak sih, baru aja selesai. Terus dia bilang, lain kali kasih tau kalo lagi dapet jadi aku bisa siap-siap.

Toenkkkk pas denger dia jawab gitu, gw jadi gak enak ati bangetttt -.- Terus gw bener-bener langsung say sorry lagi and promise in the future bakal try my best tuk manage my emotions and my action as well. Dan minta maaf sedalam-dalamnya. Lucky me, I got the very understanding guy.. He replied, ya gpp koko seneng kalo kamu ada belajar sesuatu lagi.

Well, disini gw belajar kalo cewe itu harus punya:
1. A gentle spirit
Roh yang lemah lembut. Jadi cewe yang punya hati buat selalu belajar, mau diajar, mau ditegur, no grumble and no complain.
Kadang kita cewe selalu mau jadi nomor satu. Bukan cuma always to be number one, tapiii we also want to be right. Agree with me? Lets be honest :D
Kemaren itu pastor yang kotbah bilang gini, in marriage life, there's alot of things that cant meet the meeting point. Disaat itulah spirit of submission dan kerelaan melepaskan hak sangat dibutuhkan. To let your husband be the leader, tugas kita menunduk.

2. A quiet spirit
Roh yang tentram membangun atmosphere of comfort. Gw notice, pas gw review balik si Ko Y selalu ada bilang aku siap-siap. Pas yang gw bete di capture itu sekitar bulan February, disana dia bilang aku harus siap-siap. Dan yang gw bete baru-baru ini, dia juga bilang biar aku bisa siap-siap.
Ya ampyunn ani, kalooo sampe married gw masih begini terus sih siapapun suami dan sesabar apapun dia pasti gak bakal mau pulang rumah lah. Kenapa gak mo pulang rumah? Karena secara gak langsung gw buat rumah kaya maen togel. Kalo lagi happy ya disambut baik, kalo lagi bete ya disambut seadanya. Suami mana coba yang mau pulang rumah dengan dagdigdug kek maen togel, keep guessing, hari ini gimana ya keadaannya? Harusnya kan, we as woman its one of our responsibility to make a house become resting zone. There will be plenty of time that our husband face troubles and got pressure. They need support, bukan ditodong wkwk. When he is so exhausted, where he wanna be? It should be HOME.

Ayo ani, gak boleh nagging, gak digampar udah bagus. Kadang gw remind my own self :P Haha. Dan pelan-pelan gw belajar, saya ini bukan pengacara dan Ko Y bukan terdakwa :P Jadi gak sepantasnya gw salah-salahin dia terus hwhw. Gw juga belajar selain gak taking him for granted, gw belajar untuk selalu menaruh Tuhan di tempat pertama di setiap saat di setiap harinya. Ketika gw ga seneng sama ko Y, gw akan minta baik-baik. Tapi kalo gak dikasih juga ya udalah eke minta nangis-menangis sama Tuhan. Instead of pushing or asking Ko Y too far. Dia kan juga manusia gak bisa menuhin semua my expectation.

Aniweii, sesampainya gw di Semarang gw mampir main ke lawang sewu. Mayan angker sih haha. Pas ajak Ko Y ke lawang sewu dia ogah gitu, terus gw uda hampir bete :P Dia bilang, orang semarang aja tuh gak ada yang mau kesana karena gak ada apa-apa, justru orang luar semarang aja yang pengen tau. Dalem ati gw, ya iyalah gw mau tau orang gw jarang ke semarang huh. Tapi instead ngeluarin kata-kata nyolot, I beg him and it works wkwkwk. Yeay, we woman do really has great power over a man. So becareful ladies, use your power wisely.

Suka Duka Memimpin CG (1)

Ternyata susah juga ya untuk komit nulis blog tiap hari. Kadang uda keburu males duluan, kadang juga gak tau mau tulis apa :P Yah, hari ini mau cerita tentang komsel aja deh.

Jadi, jadwal CG dipindahin jadi hari Kamis yang biasanya Jumat. Terus mulai dari tadi pagi, satu anak bbm bilang gak bisa dateng karena ada urgent matters. Ok. Menjelang siang ada lagi yang bbm bilang gak bisa, dan sisa anak-anak lainnya pada gak ada kabar. Di sms gak dibales, di bbm gak dibales. Fiuh.. Keki tingkat dewa!

Jadi sekitar jam 5an, saya uda bbm ko Yesa untuk ijin gak CG soalnya yang bisa cuma satu orang dan dia pun cowo. Kalo mau pertemuan ya ok, tapi kalo gak juga gapapa. Soalnya emank gak disarankan cuma CG berduaan dengan lawan jenis. Ditambah saya juga males, karena besok mesti flight pagi.

Terus saya super down. Ini anak-anak di smsin berkali-kali, di telp juga gak diangkat. Kenapa tumben bener bisa banyak banget yang berhalangan dan gak bisa CG. Total CG saya kira-kira bisa 10orangan lah kalo lengkap hadir semua. Terus masa 8orang gak bisa serentak. Haiah, ada apa dengan CG ini. Apa saya kurang doanya, apa saya tidak menjadi contoh yang baik, apa yang buat anak-anak jadi gak excited CG, etc etc.

Menurut gw, pelayanan yang paling melelahkan adalah pelayanan pengembalaan. Mesti follow up, mesti bagi hidup, mesti tau gimana pergumulan mereka etc. Gak gampang dan takes so much of energy, time and effort. Ketika temen gw tanya, gimana rasanya jadi pemimpin CG? Gw jawab, duh cape ati kadang. HAHA. Well, bukan karena anak-anak gw badung yah, tapi karena lebih ke beban moral yang ditanggung. Sebagai pemimpin, kamu dilihat, dicontoh, dan dipertimbangkan dalam hal sekecil apapun. Dan temen gw ini balesin, ya bagus donk kalo gak cape ati berarti belon sepenuh hati. 

Dari jawaban dia, gw langsung DEG. Iya juga yah, well walopun cape and keki tapi ya at least gw udah give my best dan trying my best. Sisanya di tangan Tuhan. Dalam mimpin CG ini, seringkali gw diingetin kalo sebenernya mereka tuh cuma titipan dari Tuhan, they are not mine and will never be mine. Jadi boleh stress, tapi gak boleh sampe depresi or stress banget. Karena pada dasarnya, keselamatan bersifat pribadi.

No doubt many times I feel like giving up. Bener-bener mau murtad haha, berasa gak mampu, dan masi mau enjoy life (yang dibaca: mau lari dari tanggung jawab). Gw mimpin CG itu dari gw umur 18taon. Pas gw masi di Singapore. Ketika ditunjuk dan dipilih, there's no room for saying no. Leader gw tau, gw tipe orang yang perlu dicemplungin dulu baru bisa berenang dengan sendirinya. And you guess what is my first reaction? I cried! Muahaha. Stress la bok, gw dulu tugas kul aja bisa ampe ga tidur ini mesti urusin CG lagi. Terus gw orang Jakarta di tengah Medanlang, bukan gw rasis ye. Tapi bahasa mereka kan hokian. Terus juga im the youngest, semua uda much older 21something.

Lalu for good dari Singapore ke Indo, saya pikir bisa leha-leha ni bebas ahaha mo nyantai dulu. Eh tau-tau dalem 3 bulan di GMS di promote jadi leader lagi. Terus gw mati-matian nolak donk ya.. Tapi si Ko Yesa setiap kali ketemu gw selalu bilangnya, jangan kaya yunus kamu nie ntar dimakan paus loh. Dan kata-kata itu jadi rhema buat gw. Terus gw gak berani lari deh wkwkwk.

Jadi leader bukan berarti saya lebih baik dari yang lain etc etc, tapi ntah mengapa seberapa capenya dan kekinya saya mimpin CG tetep aja my CG member took almost 60percent of my thoughts. Bener-bener belajar banyak hal dan gimana lay down semuanya sama Tuhan.

Dan tadii tiba-tiba jam 6.30 pada balesin sms and bbm gw bilang bisa dateng. Yeyeayeayy haha. Jadilah kita komsel berenam dan main uno sampe ketawa ngakak mules. And one more thing I learn today, everything is not gonna be easy but its gonna be worth it. So never give up on people like God never give up on you :)

Blessed night. And tomorrow is my birthday!! UHUY! And Im gonna spend it at Semarang :) Ko Y's hometown. Ihiy, super excited!! Benernya gak purposely ke sono karena bday sih, niat amat yak. Ini karena Ci Lenna married, and she hire me as MUA for her bridesmaid. Terus tanggal 7 meridnya dan di Semarang pula. Pas banget yaa.. I never celebrate my birthday with my friends for the whole day. Waktu di sing juga kekna ga pernah deh, gw di sing kerjanya bikin tugas dan tugas dan tugas. And now, I celebrate my birthday with my loved one at someplace that I never went before. Dan ini Ko Y ambil cuti buat temenin ke Semarang sekalian dia pulang kampung juga. Now you can imagine how excited I am rite. Hihi!!

Playing "What If..."

Di tag di facebook sama Kezia, biasanya kalo ada orang nge-tag blog mereka di facebook pasti akan saya cuekin. Why? Loh orang gw follow blognya juga koq, ngapain pake tag-tag lagi. But I realize, kalo di tag pasti suatu yang urgent or special haha. Kaya dulu ci Lia juga tag blognya dan kita disuru buat 10 things before 30.

Alrite, its a fun game and funny as well :P When I read the others fellow blogger answers, I get to know them better. Though it just a tiny bit hehe. Thats being said, I want to know the point of view from you guys as well. Starting from Designer Team Pearl magazine :D Coz I used to work really closed with you and I want to know you better :) Please start it really soon dear Eunike, Febe, Melissa, Michelle, Veri, Ci Julia, and the rest goes to these beautiful ladies that I want to know as well are Letice, Marchia, TepGun, Cella, Ci Erlyn, Ci Grace, Ci Shinta, Ci Lia, and Ci Nelly point of view :)

And here we go...

Orang-orang berkata kalo gue: 
Determined, perfectionist, dreamer, lovable, easy going and galak. 

Kalo dapet 1 milyar gue pasti: 
100 juta perpuluhan
100 juta kasih papa mama buat liburan ke amrik
100 juta kasih hubby buat tambahan bantuan buka usaha
100 juta tabungin mikir mau buka usaha ape
200 juta simpen buat biaya married kekeke :P
400 juta dialokasikan untuk tambahan beli rumah bersama future husband :D

Klo kejebak macet gue... 
Masukin DVD Philip Mantofa and let's enjoy the sermon :)

Indonesia adalah negara yang...
Kaya akan sumber daya alam, kaya akan sumber daya manusia. Tapi sayangnya tidak dimaksimalkan :(

Mantan gue...
Gak ada ketek-keteknya sama laki gw yang sekarang. HAHA. Im so blessed not together anymore with you. And now Im the luckiest girl on earth to have Ko Y by my side :D

Klo berada di depan kuburan M.J...
Ambil poto, ambil video, upload ke instagram HUAHAHA.

Hidup ini penuh dengan...
Panggung sandiwara :P

Tak ada tempat yang indah selain...
Dipelukan orang terkasih. LOL classic banget ya. Well, I love greenyy grass and colorful flower. Taman bunga dimana bisa guling-guling sambil baca buku. Dan ada still water besidenya uhuyy! Udara sejuk sepoy-sepoy gak rame, gak bising.

Ke mana pun gue pergi, pasti bawa...
Bawa diri. Beneran deh gw sering lupa bawa hape dan dompet -.-

Kalo divonis kanker... 
Im big girl now, and big girl dont cry. LOH? Kidding. I will hug my parents and tell them everything is gonna be alright. Im stronger than they think and my God has the final says not the doctor!

Pagi-pagi enaknya makan...

Sosis kejuuuuuuu dan kentanggg gorengg with mayonnaise. Dan jus apple!

Pekerjaan yang paling membosankan di dunia adalah... 
Gak tau mau mengerjakan apa. BLEH bosenin banget.

Hal yang paling mengerikan di dunia adalah... 
Bila semua top movie box office become reality :S Adanya zombie, bloody flood, serangan sana sini, makhluk asing. OH NO!

Bencana alam itu...
Mengerikan dan menakutkan.

Waktu SMA gue dikenal sebagai... 
Cewe yang selalu cari alasan biar gak ikut olahraga, bersuara keras dan jutek.

Saat yang paling tenang, saat... 
Knowing that God always in perfect control :)

Paling males kalo ngelihat...
Orang yang malesin!

Kalo orang ciuman didepan gue... 
Ya uda biasa aja, udah common thing banget lah jaman sekarang. Selama gak tembak-tembakan di depan gw, I still can handle it.

Gue pengen banget... 
Here's my bucket list. Tapi yang paling diinginkan untuk saat ini adalah buka usaha yang running very well dengan stabil income jadi bisa cepet married dengan gaun putih panjang full of lace, awesome decoration with breath taking pre-wed photos and go honeymoon and have kiddos HAHA.

Wanita2 cantik dan seksi di depan gw sambil ketawa2 keras2, dalem pikiran gue... 
Waaa pasti ada yang lagi SALE. Dimana dimana dimana dimana? Me want too!

Pria dengan jeans robek-robek, baju hitam gambar tengkorak, ngerokok, nongkrong depan circle-K, dalem pikiran gue... 
Alrite let's go to 7 11 instead of Circle-K. I will buy my food there haha.

Orang yang sok imut dan sok childish... 
Definitely not one of my best friend :)

Lagi jalan, ada yang lewat pake motor bilang "fuck you" 
Terusin jalan lah. I dont give a sh*t to stranger with no manner.

Mama papa bilang kapan nikah? 
Begh udah gak jaman. Papa sekarang uda minta cucu terus *ngais lantai*

Afgan dateng kerumah...
Ajak foto bareng terus upload to instagram HAHA. Minta tolong dia untuk bantu endorse Memory Lane gw juga hehe.

Kalo tengah malem ditelepon pacar... 
Ani: Kamu kenapa ko? Baik-baik aja ta, ada yang gak beres?
Ko Y: Oh gapapa koq, cuma pengen telpon aja. Lagi kangennnn.
Ani: Asssiiikkk!! Tell me storyyyy donk jadi aku bisa tidur lebih cepet hihi.

Kalo besok kiamat... 
Finally my duty on earth is DONE. Gak sabar mau liat kamar yang udah disiapin Tuhan hehe. Pasti full with cutey artsy stuff. Yeay.

Not Just A Sticker

Yeeehhaaa, udah lama banget gak update blog :D I miss it and actually there are lots of things to tell ya :)

Let's start with my new sticker for my baby car. Sticker ini tulisannya Army of God get ready to fight for holiness and righteousness. Army of God itu sendiri adalah nama ibadah youth di gereja mawar sharon. Pas awal-awal masuk GMS liatin mobil temen-temen gereja banyak yang pake ini, wuihh keren juga. Design'nya juga oke.

Benernya gw beli'nya udah lama, mau pasang tapi gak pede terus soalnya takut miring dan ternyata beneran miring SIGH. Ini dikarenakan my cutest dog, enzo keep licking my feet pas gw masang. Enzo tuh hobi jilatin daerah-daerah aneh. Seperti belakang lutut, belakang siku, jempol kaki wkwkw. Jadi pas gw masang, enzo licked terus. Gw uda teriak-teriak, enzo stop it stop ittttt malah tetep keterusan. Udah gitu ambil bangku pendek buat masang, gara-gara dijilat lagi jadilah nemplok duluan tuh sticker sebelon selsai ngira-ngira HIKS.

Can you see how slanted it is?

Pas udah masang ni sticker di mobil, ada perbedaan yang berasa banget. Apa coba?! Bukan karena ganggu pemandangan belakang, nope. Trust me I still can see clearly, it doesnt bother me at all! Perbedaan pertama yang berasa banget adalah, saya gak bisa sembarangan nyelak-nyelak or motong jalan orang. HUFFFT!

Well, I do not want to be naive here. Needless to say, if you drive in Jakarta you will know what I'm feeling and even the five-year-old-kiddo know how terrible the traffic here is. So I wont explain much about it!

I need to admit that I'm not always be a good driver, tapi so far gw gak pernah melanggar lalu lintas seperti nerobos lampu merah, naek jalur busway, lewat bahu jalan, or masuk forbidden area. BUT Im good at selak-selak jalur orang hehe. Saya jago nyelip :D Apalagi kalo I'm so familiar with the route. It tooks 45mins for my little brother to drive me from home to Central Park. But it only took me 25mins, with the same traffic. Why? Karena saya tau, begitu masuk di tol harus ambil jalur mana. Ntar setelah berapa km harus ambil jalur mana. Sebelom lampu merah jalur mana lagi. Gw hapal luar kepala bok karena I used to it. Practice makes perfect though.

Rasanya susah bangettt buat gak nyelak or motong. Apalagi kalo in a hurry. Mungkin some of you think kalo nyelak-nyelak itu hal biasa. Well, emank somehow biasa aja sih di Indo ini apalagi Jakarta, tapi tetep ajah kalo gw yang diselak gw suka KESEL BENER. Apalagi sekarang di belakang uda ada sticker dengan tulisan GOD gede banget, ntar mobil belakang bisa bilang -- ini orang Kristen kok kelakuan minus. Toenk2. Batu sandungan deh.

Dan yang kedua tersusah adalah, tidak main klakson. Gw bete banget kalo ada orang nyebrang gak kira-kira dikate jalan punya engkongnya! Or motor yang motong jalan orang seenak jidatnya. Actually, I didn't realize gw main klakson segitu hebring'nya sampe temen baik gw si Sara bilang.. "Stop ani stop kuping gw pengeng." or Rere said.. "Udah gapapa nie kasih dulu aja." or one ultimatum reminder that slap my face, "sabar uy inget sticker lu tuh." Wakakaka you have no idea how powerful that words are. I instantly stop the horn :P

So lesson learned, it not just a sticker. And same things goes when you wore cross accessory or something like that. It not just an accessory. If I can say, it shows our identity to the world.

Saya nyelip-nyelip or motong-motong dengan alasan takut telat pelayanan sampe gereja. Padahal saya sendiri gak suka diselip-selip. And I fail to apply the golden rule, do unto others what you want others do unto you.

Saya pake kalung salib tapi kadang saya masih curse orang yang overtaking my way. And curse him/ her really badly sometimes. To be honest, I really need extra grace from God to guide my mouth especially while im driving!!

I said a little prayer to God to bless my country, my city. Yet, I always grumble and complain about how bad the freaking traffic in Jakarta and sometimes I did make a joke with this city too. Oh I know how bad I am.

How many of us doing christianity without being a christian? Christian is not (only) about a religion, is about a lifestyle. Is a way of life. Do not only be a godly man/ woman without showing a godly example. Let's learn to be faithful in small things :)

Mobil Bagus, Kelakuan Minus

About a month ago. 
Gw lagi nyetir di daerah macet gitu sih karena deket dengan pertigaan. Ada dua jalur di jalan itu, jalur yang berlawanan arah ya bukan sejajar gitu. Arah yang gw tuju itu super macettt, sedangkan arah yang berlawanan lancar-lancar jaya. Terus tiba-tiba ada mobil jeep gede keren lawan arah karena mau nyalip mobil belakang gw. Tapi karena mobil di belakang gw itu gak ngasih, jadilah si jeep ini menimbulkan kemacetan di arah sebaliknya yang sebelonnya lanca-lancar aja. Liat itu gw geremmm abisss. Langsung lah saya mengeluarkan kata-kata ihh pliss deh mobil bagus tapi kelakuan minus. 

Tapi rasa gerem gw ini masih belom apa-apa dibandingkan kejadian beberapa minggu lalu.. di parkiran central park mall.

About a week ago. 
Gw sama temen gw lagi mau parkir di luaran mall central park yang seharian cuma bayar 5.000 rupiah haha :P Tapi biasanya privilege ini khusus untuk mobil-mobil yang berurusan dengan ruko or gedung tribecca. Karena GMS terletak di tribecca level 1, jadilah plat mobil saya sudah tercatat dan terkenal baik sama satpam'nya :D

Dan karena parkiran ini terkenal murah, pasti banyak lah ya yang mau parkir disini. Kalo parkir di mall kan 4.000/ jam. Berasa banget kan bedanya :S Nah praise God, kosong tuh tempat parkirinya. Dan kosong cuma satu pula, indeed God really care with every little things in my life :) Terus si satpam bilang: tunggu luar ya non, satu-satu masuknya. Jadi tempat parkirnya tuh kira-kira begini:

Yasuda, saya menunggu manis dalam mobil. Terus tiba-tiba ada satpam lain yang suruh mobil gw maju. Gw bilang, saya mau parkir pak. Satpamnya bilang, iya maju dulu soalnya ada bus gede mau belok and gak cukup. Terus gw maju sambil liat lewat spion. Dalem ati, segede apa nih bus sampe gak bisa lewat. Ehhh ternyataa ada mobill CRV dibelakang gw yang stop juga. Ya jelas aja lah gak muat kalo ada dua mobil bejejer berenti. 

Terus gw bilang ke temen gw, ngapain tuh CRV berenti juga? Kenapa gak dia aja yang belok juga jadi gw gak perlu maju. Toh jelas-jelas gw uda kasih sen untuk parkir. Dan karena adanya tuh CRV, gw diposisi mentok gak bisa kemana-mana. Gak bisa parkir. Maju mentok, mundur pun ada dia. Bahkan setelah bus'nya belok nih CRV gak ada niat or tanda-tanda untuk mundur or jalan.

Terus gw bilang ke temen gw, jangan-jangan nih orang mau parkir juga. Ehhh ternyataa, gw belom selsai ngomong pun tuh mobil uda masuk ke tempat parkir mau parkir. GERAM!

Gw uda buka seat belt dan siap-siap mau turun, sampe nih CRV bener-bener ambil tempat parkir gw. Sorry, I am not yaudalah-kasih-dia-aja that kind of girl. Gw uda siapin kata-kata manis tapi menohok. Jelas-jelas saya udah antri duluan dan main asal serobot aja, jelas tau cari parkir gak gampang!! Gw gak bakal maki-maki or marah-marah gimana juga sih, ya malu la ya bow. Udah hair dryer'an, pake heels, pake rok mau gereja tapi kelakuan kaya singa :S 

And God prove me that I shouldn't do that either. He remind me that what He prepared, no one can take it. What He opens, no one can close; and what He closes, no one can open (Rev3:7). Si satpam'nya gak kasih nih CRV untuk parkir, dia bilang kalo ibu ini uda nunggu dari tadi dan uda duluan. Terjadi perdebatan sekitar 2 menitan sampe si satpam juga agak naik suaranya. Tapi akhirnya CRV itu pergi dan saya yang dapet. CIHUYYYY!! Pengen rasanya gw lempar telor, biar my very first list di bucket list terpenuhi wakakaka.

Dan dari kejadian ini membuat saya berdecak lagi dan ngoceh ke temen gw, ampun dehhh mobil bagus tapi kelakuan minus. Iya bok, mobilnya bagus lah secara CRV new gitu! Dan yang nyetir juga mayan ganteng (keliatan pas buka kaca wakakak). Tapi gw langsung ilfil to the max deh. Amid-amid punya pacar yang kelakuannya minus. Dari perkara kecil gini ajah uda keliatan kualitas dan intergrity dia gimana. Pertama nyerobot parkiran orang, kedua dia jelas tau yang nyetir cewe dan dia udah salah terus gak mau ngalah :S

Jadi inget kata Ci Lenna, kemaren pas lagi BBM'an dia bilang:

Cari cowo harus yang bener-bener baik. Bukan cuma ke kamu or keluarga kamu aja baiknya. Tapi ke tukang ojek juga harus baik hehe. 

BeuhhHhh bener banget nih! Males banget gak sih punya pacar yang baiknya manisnya cuma ke kita doank :S Dari tuh cowo debat sama si satpam, sampe si satpam nada tinggi and rada sewot gitu, gw jadi mikir.. Jika kita tidak bisa menggebrak meja di depan seorang jendral, mengapa kita bisa menggebrak meja di depan seorang waiter? Have a humble heart!

Mobil keren tapi kelakuan minus, really teach me a lesson. Let a man's character and integrity be his currency and you will find that a lot of "rich" guys are actually bankrupt! And please bear in mind ladies, do not choose a man because he has the things that money can buy, choose him because he has the things that money can't buy! 

My First Scrapframe

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Speaks Of Wisdom And Understanding

Do you know what exactly the meaning of wisdom? The word "wisdom" always interest me. Who doesn't know the story about King Solomon? A super duper wise King. Even the bible mention that there will be no other King as wise as him in 1 King 3:12, I will give you a wise and discerning heart, so that there will never have been anyone like you, nor will there ever be.

Interesting isn't it! I often ask and pray to God to give me wisdom. I thought I understand enough what wisdom means and what is required to get such a wisdom. We often use words we think we understand, until someone asks us to define them. Aren't we? 

If you ask me to define wisdom, I will think for a seconds and errmmm... my answer will be different times to times. I have done a research, and there's so many different result about the definition of wisdom. 
It might be "the ability to discern or judge what is true, right, or lasting; insight." 
Or it might be "a wise outlook, plan, or course of action."
Or it will be "the sum of learning through the ages; knowledge"

And actually none of that answer satisfy me. Yet, this morning my quite time state all clear. 

Job 28:12-28 NLT Version

12“But do people know where to find wisdom? Where can they find understanding? 13No one knows where to find it, for it is not found among the living. 14‘It is not here,’ says the ocean. ‘Nor is it here,’ says the sea. 

15It cannot be bought with gold. It cannot be purchased with silver. 16It’s worth more than all the gold of Ophir, greater than precious onyx or lapis lazuli. 17Wisdom is more valuable than gold and crystal. It cannot be purchased with jewels mounted in fine gold. 18Coral and jasper are worthless in trying to get it. The price of wisdom is far above rubies. 19Precious peridot from Ethiopia cannot be exchanged for it. It’s worth more than the purest gold. 

20“But do people know where to find wisdom? Where can they find understanding? 21It is hidden from the eyes of all humanity. Even the sharp-eyed birds in the sky cannot discover it. 22Destruction and Death say, ‘We’ve heard only rumors of where wisdom can be found.’ 

23“God alone understands the way to wisdom; He knows where it can be found, 24 for He looks throughout the whole earth and sees everything under the heavens. 25 He decided how hard the winds should blow and how much rain should fall. 26He made the laws for the rain and laid out a path for the lightning. 27Then he saw wisdom and evaluated it. He set it in place and examined it thoroughly. 

28And this is what He says to all humanity: ‘The fear of the Lord is true wisdom; to forsake evil is real understanding.’”

What is wisdom? How does anyone become wise? Simple answer --> Fear the Lord with all your might, for it is the beginning of wisdom (Prov9:10).

Be blessed and oh how I miss writing! *drools*

Introducing Memory Lane

Yeay!! Finally I can introduce to you guys, memory lane :D This is all about scrapbooking and DIY stuff that originally handmade by me ;) And I do open for orders now, please help me to spread the news! :P 

Nah ini scrapbook frame pertama yang gw buat, untuk anak CG gw yang birthday. Jadi themenya garden gitu deh. Frame 3D ukurannya 30x30cm, tebel 5cm dengan kaca. 

Sedikit cerita gimana akhirnya gw memberanikan diri untuk mutusin start bikin side job gini. Earning a living while doing what I love is a dream that I wish to pursue. Tentunya ada harga yang harus dibayar T.T Gw sibuk ajegila-gilaan. Kerjaan kantor gw berkutat dengan data jadi ingetan mesti kenceng benerrr! Pengerjaan majalah Pearl, mostly kita kan beda negara tuh jadi cuma contact via email/ bbm gtu. Tapi God is so good dah, He is really Jehovah Jireh!! Terus ministry di gereja ada training-training, en GMS lagi banyak upcoming event, juga pengembalaan CG. Belon lagi harus bagi waktu antara me-time, family-time, and friends-time.

Awal-awal pas bikin ini, I dunno how many times I tempted to gave up. Coz gw berasa gak mampu. Cuapeeee poll. Terus liat competitor lain pada bagus-bagus banget, jadi minder! Terus inget quotes ini:

Do not compare your beginning to someone else's middle 

- Jon Acuff

Terus jadi mayan semangat lagi, coz deep down in my heart. I really know that.. this is my passion and what I love to do :) To design and inspire others is my passion. I truly LOVE designing, writing and doing handmade stuff. Always believe that personal touches make things more precious :D

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Never Ceasing To Pray

Do you ever feel so let down and seems you can't take heart anymore? When there's no word could express your feeling and when a tight hug couldn't calm your emotion. Do you ever feel like that? Well, that's what I'm feeling currently.

There's a quote saying, "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" or "you never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have." Alrite, that's true somehow. But, how if I'm tired of being strong? I'm not just tired, I'm exhausted. Exhausted to pretend to be strong.

I know I know, that God will never give anything beyond my control. For the bible tells me so. But there's a slightly difference between I know and I believe. I used to believe that 1Cor10:13 is true, but now I kinda doubt it >.< I guess, I'm in crucial condition...

In her email, Ci Erlyn said: Never ceasing to pray!!! When you worry, you pray! When you are sad, you pray! When you are disappointed, you pray! When you are angry, you pray!

Source from here.

And one thing I learn from this situation, I learn the fact that when I don't feel like praying, that's actually the best time to pray. I'm so tremendously weak and I really need God, for I believe those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. That's why I need to pray, and I can't tell you how many times I have been forced to my knees, realizing there was no other place to go. I seek God to find an answer for my trouble heart, and far from it He makes me realize that He is the answer that I need. 

Sometimes God calms the storm. Sometimes He lets the storm rage and He calms you. -Nicky Gumbel. 

Songs by Avalon, everything to me hummed in my car. And I sobbed when I heard every lyrics of it. And I cried even more when I sang along this song with the last lyrics, You are everything. Lord you are everything to me, Jesus. It's like God asking me, "how far you trust Me? Do you really trust Me? Am I really everything for you? Do you believe that I'm the God of universe?" 

It's like a harsh slap on my face! I certainly forget that God is always in perfect control. Sometimes when the bad situation happens, it makes me forget that the Lord is always good. All the time. The Lord is good all the time. In every situation. The God of the good times is still God in the bad times, and the God of the day, is still God in the night. Trust Him!

And all of my life, the good things that He ever done in my life makes me fully realize that I can stand up to now its only because of prayer. Its because the quality time that I spent to pray. Every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands, and every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in my prayer. And of course because of the prayer support from my loved ones. Its not about me, but who is behind me. I really experience the power of prayer and prayer change things.

I do struggle, I do afraid and worried, yet all I have seen teaches me to trust The Creator for all I have not seen. Faith is seeing light with your heart when all your eyes see is darkness. 

Faith and fear ask the same thing, to believe for something that hasn't happened yet. - Joel Osteen.

Well choose wisely then, faith or fear. And when I open my old diary, I found what is written on 28 May 2012.. 

"There's no success, no happiness, and no fulfillment in life apart from a consistent, daily growing relationship with Jesus through the word." 

What a great reminder! The key to have success, happiness and fulfillment in life located in consistent prayer time and reading the word of God. 

From the tiny birds of the air and the fragile lilies of the field we learn the same truth. God takes care of His own. He is moved by our weaknesses and He stands ready to come to our rescue. - Charles Swindoll.

Valentine Day 2012 & 2013

Happy valentine day everyone :) Semoga setiap hari terasa seperti hari valentine yah, penuh cinta :D Frankly to say, buat gw valentine day is not really a big eve that I should celebrate. Like christmas, easter, or new year eve. For me its just simply a normal day especially as I grow older. Back then when I was at junior high school I loveeee to give away chocolate, made by my self :P But now, I'm just so lazy to do it. 

Yet, I do celebrate valentine. With my closest one of course, the-five-of-us whom I can proudly say "angels from Heaven above." We have been friends since junior high school, even one of them is my childhood friend. I am really blessed with this 8-year-friendship-and-still-counting-on. During high school, we do exchange chocolate, cute ones :) I still remember how many hours that I spent to made a chocolate with their name written on it. SIGH!! 

Day by day passed away, we grow older and we don't grow apart :) And during my study in Singapore, we can't celebrate valentine together anymore. And I miss it, I miss collecting chocolate and eat them :D Last year since I for-good to Jakarta, I have an idea to celebrate valentine day with them by not only having a dinner, but also exchange personal card :) And every words that written on it just so touching and funny :P

Here's the card that I received during 2012 :)

Untuk gw, gw dapet sailormoon. Dan temen-temen yang lain karakter dari sailor juga, disesuaikan dengan pribadi kita, so kreatif isn't it?

And she mentioned there, "I wish my brother in law are the best son of Christ..." In other word, my future spouse will be her bro in law. Eventho we don't have blood connection, and what she wrote in the card remind me of this verse, there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother - Prov18:24.

Jane is the sweetest gal among all of us. She's the one that soft-hearted, kind-loving type of girl. While all of us have loud voice and do nothing less than what a truly lady should do (read: wildcat).

Here's my childhood friend :D Kita temenan dari masa-masa cemongan bedak haha. Disini dia tulis, gw traktir vegan all you can eat! HUAHAHA, ngakak langsung pas baca. Soalnya ini kaya warung warteg deket rumah yang gw sukaaaa banget :P Emang dasar dia pelit, jadi cuma mau ditraktir itu aja =.= Coz she said, sebanyak-banyaknya gw makan vegan, paling cuma mampu sampe berapa banyak sih. Dan pasti less than 50k. Toenk2.

Yang ini dari Rere, dia ngajar sekolah minggu di gerejanya jadinya she's super creative and lots of interesting idea. Yet, she's our drama queen and Miss-never-be-on-time :P

Unfortunately due to this and that, I can't join valentine celebration with them :( And surprisingly they come over to my house after the dinner and we have a little time to chit chat, exchange the card as well. Really touched! Could you please kindly tell me how blessed I am? And here's what I've received this year..

Di kartu ini si Sara super pede euy, dikira eke mo nitipin anak gw ke dia haha. She will be my last port :P In our silly conversation, we all agreed to never let her take care of our kids due to we scared that she might "broke the ear of our kids." (long history why we could think of broke-the-ear).

This is the cutest one!! Kitkat with my picture on it, well chubby one >.< And what is written in the card is so funny and am amazed with how well she know me ;) I can't stop laughing while I read the two last sentence.

Again, could you please kindly remind me how blessed I am? To have not just faithful friends, but sister-in-Christ that keep make me feel loved and treasured. I'm quite upset that I can't make it to join the dinner, and I can't take picture and read all the other cards that their received. Due when they come over to my house its already super late and we need to send back our other friend that stay quite far from our complex so we just do a simple chit chat inside the car. Huhu. But there's always blessing in disguise :)

Here's my personal card for them ;) Well, happy valentine day all. Spread the love!

Ps: to all my girls, thank you for the joys and I hope we can still do this every year.. eventho we have lots of kids in the future :P

My Bucket List

Thank God It's Friday :P I have nothing to do in office now, because only few people come to office today due to preparation for Chinese new year eve. And am thinking to do my bucket list. Get inspired from a friend of mine, here.

Taken from here.

So here's my bucket list, I have list down some of the naive and craziest things I have in mind that I want to accomplish in this journey of life. Some of them really stupid, because it comes from my wildest imagination. I just think its fun to write them down, and maybe 10years later when I review back, I will laugh so hardly and can proudly say "aha I have done this!"

1. Throw an eggs into the car that overtaking my way.
2. Own a samoyed and husky with green eyes on the right, and blue eyes on the left.
3. Christmas dinner eve with hubby and closest friends at my house, with all the handmade cooking and decoration all by myself.
4. Experience a sunset and a sunrise at Sawarna.
5. Passionate kiss in the rain on my honeymoon.
6. Have quiet time before the Lord in a boat in the middle of sea under the blinking stars. Adoring how great is my God!
7. Go to Holy land and visit those places on the Bible.
8. Sharing how God changes my life in front of 10.000 people.
9. Attend Christmas service at church and holding hands with my hubby during the worship time.
10. Become an author on something that means alot to me.
11. Oh how I wish to have twins!
12. Achieve financial abundance with my passion.
13. Be the boss.
14. Become a guest speaker on woman's conference.
15. Fall picnic.
16. Stay in pretty caravan for a week.
17. Build a gingerbread house.
18. Fly in a hot-air balloon across a country.
19. Bring my family to Eiffel tower.
20. Go on disney cruise, disney dream.
21. Visit all disneyland over the world.
22. Buy starbuck's doll every time my husband & I visit a country, and have collection of it :)
23. Dancing in the rain with my 5-year-old little boy.
24. Swim with bikini in Maldives.
25. Lunch with Eric and Leslie Ludy.
26. Dinner with Joshua and Shannon Harris. 
27. Hug my lifetime partner so tightly during new year's eve at Santorini.
28. Tell my parents how lucky I am to be raised in this family.
29. Have a car with plat no B990ANI.
30. Received handmade gift from special friends.
31. Have a lemonade stand on night market.
32. Have breakfast in bed served by my husband.
33. Camp out in my own backyard, count the stars at night and fall asleep.
34. Have a movie marathon by myself. 
35. Become vegetarian for at least a month.
36. Stay for a month with Mennonite.
37. Knit something cozy.
38. Be in a room lit up with thousand candles.
39. Sky lantern festival, Taiwan.
40. In New York city during Halloween period, and play the trick or treat.
41. Wear princess costume together with my childhood friends (five of us) and take picture. 
42. Expert to braid my own hair.
43. Own a chanel bag. 
44. Watch SAW movie.
45. Enjoying me-time for the whole day. Saloon-spa-shopping-reading-eat at fancy restaurant.
46. Have a date night.
47. Go bungee jumping.
48. Brave enough to curl my hair permanently.
49. Smoothing my hair and dye my hair brown color, highlight with green color. 
50. Visit all museum in Jakarta.
51. Fast indomie for 3month!!
52. Be the cover of magazine.
53. Guest speaker in radio.
54. Sell all my novels, except lima sekawan by Enid blyton.
55. Have all the complete collection of lima sekawan (old edition).
56. Library at my house.
57. Sleep at sofa with the most handsome guy in the world (read: my husband) while watching polar express. 
58. Spend a week at Louvre.
59. Pet hair coloring - turning my baby enzo into colorful fluffy dog. 
60. Take picture with boo, cutest dog in the world.
61. Have all books by Elizabeth George.
62. Read the whole bible with different translation NLT, NIV, KJV, NKJV.
63. Make caramel apples for my mom.
64. Make my own cook book.
65. Take a nap in the library.
66. Happily married and fall deeply in love each and every day in my life.
67. Lifelong friendship.
68. Swim in a lake. 
69. Have blog with million readers.
70. Attend my sunday school student's wedding.
71. Own a boutique. 
72. Be on 44kg ALWAYS.
73. Kiss underwater.
74. Slow dance with my lifetime partner with as beautiful as you as the background song.
75. Read a book in large bathtub full of soap foam. 
76. Mini library in my toilet.
77. Walk around Vail village. 
78. Go to the gym for a year. 
79. Play guitar, have guitar, decorate my guitar.
80. Take dance lessons. Go salsa dancing and be awesome.
81. Send a message in a bottle. 
82. Swim with dolphins.
83. Visit the circus.
84. Fly first class. 
85. Decorate the christmas tree as a family. 
86. Make a super spicy homemade chili and sell it to neighbor, at least 10cans. 
87. Horse back riding.
88. Plant a rose and watch them grow.
89. Invent an ice cream flavor.
90. Catch a cockroach by myself!! =.= 
91. Illustrate a children book. 
92. Master the art of calligraphy and use it often. 
93. Dance with my little boy at my parent's gold wedding anniversary.
94. Dance at my gold wedding anniversary.
95. Snowball fights.
96. Watch my kid(s) graduate high school, college, grad school. Never miss a thing.
97. Experience the joy of being a mom.
98. Home made sponge cake for my daddy.
99. Watch Nutcracker.
100. Never stop dreaming!