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Saturday, October 29, 2011

Psalm 91

Psalm 91 is my favorite chapter of all chapters in the psalms :)

1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the LORD,
“He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”
3 Surely He will save you from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with His feathers,
and under His wings you will find refuge;
His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you say, “The LORD is my refuge,”
and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For He will command His angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 “Because he loves me,” says the LORD,
“I will rescue him;
I will protect him,
for he acknowledges My name.

15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
and show him My salvation.”

What Faith Can Do

Gw mau cerita tentang pergumulan yg lagi gw alamin, sekarang kan gw lagi cari2 kerja nih. Portfolio udah jadi dan kemaren Kamis gw uda mulai sent out my CV and sample art works. Gw cuma sent ke 7 company so far.
Wedding company:
1. Axioo
2. Edward Suhadi
3. Little Collins
Design company:
4. Nuage
5. Bentuk
6. Agung Podomoro
7. Transmahagaya

Kenapa gw apply kerja cuma sedikit? Soalnya ini company dimana gw bener2 mau masuk. Itu nomor yg gw list berurutan tuh sesuai my wish ;p They are big company, I aim high. Pertama-tama gw cuma apply kerja coba di company yg gw bener2 mau masuk dulu, kalo ga dapet ya uda baru gencar kirim kemana aja.

The reason why I want to work there, bukan karena my PRIDE. Wah kerja di company gede enak ya blabla terkenal. Tapi karena He give the passion, the desire that so strong. Nah tau darimana ini desire dari Tuhan? Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4 Gw bener-bener bergumul sama Tuhan tentang pekerjaan, dimana Dia mau gw ditempatkan dsb.

I truly know and believe bukan karena gede ato hebatnya suatu company sampe kita bisa say God is good and amazing. He is ALWAYS good! Even in small company, we can say that. The most important is kita menjalani apa yg Tuhan kasih for our mission. We work there for a mission, to spread the gospel :) Wherever kita ditempatkan, dan every little things that happened in our life showed how great and amazing is our God! Dont have to wait ampe sesuatu besar terjadi to realize that!

And praise God! 3 dari company di atas call me for interview.. Axioo, Edward Suhadi, and Nuage. Axioo reply di hari Kamis juga, sedangkan Edward Suhadi dan Nuage ini besoknya hari Jumat. Padahal biasanya kata temen gw kalo big company bisa sampe 2-3minggu baru dipanggil. Axioo bilang kalo dya lagi arrange the schedule, and will let me know soon. Sedangkan yg 2company ini hari selasa gw interview. Pray for me yah :)

Everything sounds so good isnt it? But me! Im lack of give thanks. This evening I cried and cried.. There's really a big burden in my heart. And I prayed to God, I said.. God are You sure I can do this? Why I think I cant? Dan gw mulai takuttt banget, takut kalo ga betah, takut kalo gajinya ga meet my expectation, takut kalo lembur sampe kaya orgil, and the biggest fear as designer.. I scared that I will lost my creativity.. and dont have any fresh idea anymore :(
Karena jujur aja beberapa hari ini gw lagi jenuh banget sama design thingy, its like there's no joy and peace like I used to do. And I start thinking.. Apa gw salah ya ambil jurusan as graphic designer? DANG!!

Dan gw ini really a big fan of axioo. Dan ada satu jobscope di axioo yg gw suka banget, baca disini deh. Tapi sepertinya mereka intrevw gw as graphic designer. Gw mulai sedih dah.. Yah, I miss that chance.. padahal gw suka bgttt sama job scopenya. Dan ketakutan gw yg lain adalah, kata temen gw axioo itu kalo kabarin hasil interview bisa 3mingguan. Terus gw mikir, selasa ini intrvew, kalo keterima dan nanya kapan siap kerja gw akan jawab 14Nov kan pas tuh tengah bulan. Nah sedangkan sampe sekarang axioo belon ada kabar! Gimana kalo andaikata gw keterima di company lain dan harus kasi kabar asap? Haruskah gw terima offer mereka dan give up axioo ato nunggu axioo dengan chance belon tau juga hasilnya keterima or kaga??

I know I know Im thinking too much and so much negativity play around in my mind.
And I lost my faith, hey where's my faith?! Gw sadar bangettt kalo Im holding too tight and my dreams are causing me to be frustrated :(

Terus come acros this video from a friend of mine. See and watch, believe me its worth every second!



Makes me realize, that my faith in me can do nothing but His faith in me can do everything! He is the God who turns IMPOSSIBLE become I'M POSSIBLE. And how many times I have been force to my knees realizing theres no other place to go. Ya iyalah, gw uda bener2 ga tau lagi mo gmn. Gak mungkin kan ngotot2 sama axioo suru interview gw cepet2 dan kabarin cepet2. Ya udalah sekarang pasrah aja, if it is mine than its mine! If not, then He has a better YES for me! I will not give up on my dreams but I will release my worry and frustration.

Proverbs 23:18
There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.

Psalm 23
A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,
3 He refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil, for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,

and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Friday, October 28, 2011

Empowered 21

Yak, saya baru pulang dari Asia Empowered 21. Banyak pembicara2 dari luar negri gitu deh, gabungan dari beberapa gereja. Terus juga banyak dari negara2 Asia lain yang ikutan kaya Filipin, Thailand, Myanmar, China, Taiwan, Hongkong. Sekitar 5000 orang deh.. Biayanya 500.000 perorang, dan I get it for free :D Soalnya temen gw dapet quota gitu untuk 10orang kalo gak salah, terus dia ajak2in deh..
Nah ini temen gw si Yuyu yang ngajakin gw :D Thank you so much loh yu! Btw, makanannya juga enak2 banget. Hokben lah, terus ada KFC. Ini KFC ye satu orang dapet 2ayam 2nasi ajegileeee. All for free loh :) Uda included..
Ini berlangsung selama 25-28October 2011. Dan sessionnya itu beda2, sehari ada 3session. Pagi, siang, dan sore. Tiap session itu juga ada beberapa topic jadi bebas mo pilih yang mana gitu. Gw ma temen2 gw beberapa pisah sih soalnya kita pilih yg beda2. Ada dua session yang paling nancep buat gw :) Sekarang gw share yang pendek dulu aje ye soalnya eke tepar bok.

By Billy Gilson
Dia bilang gini singkatnya.. Mungkin dalam hidup kita, kita menghadapi beberapa masalah. Ntah itu masalah dengan orang lain, masalah di pekerjaan, masalah dengan hati kita, etc. Ketika cobaan terus menerus datang dan memukul, there's time when the evil one will say: you are exhausted, just give up. You wont see your family get saved, you wont see your dreams come true. so just give up. Then we need to say to evil: Yes Im tired, but God is not exhausted! For He who is in me is greater than anything!

Jlebb nanceppp bangett. Ahaha. Saat itu juga gw langsung bilang ke Tuhan, Yes God Im tired about finding a job and sometimes I am really tired praying for my family, coz I dont see any changes or movement. But I know God, You love my parents more than I love them..

Satu lagi yg bagus kotbahnya itu tentang servant leadership by Manny Carlos. Besok2 saya share deh yah :) Uda mau bobok.. Yang jelas saya ga nyesel dah pergi, cape tapi it was worth it! :D

Oh ya ini poto eke sama temen2 yg pergi pas itu :D
Take one, kaya di film final desnitation yah LOL super blur!
Oh ya, karena itu tempat rame banget dan kita pisah2 perginya and name tagnya tuh ketuker2 gitu, mao kontek2an juga signalnya parah teuing dah. Untung gw ga ilang >.< jadinya hari terakhir itu gw pake nama GRACE :) Temen gw cewe ada yg dapet nama temen cowoknya. Paulus Anggun, Nathan, dan yg paling kocak ada yg namanya Ade Rock. Terus pas sesi doain orang ga dikenal gitu, temen gw ditanyain kamu yg bener namanya Paulus? Wakaka ngakak langsung, jelas2 dya cewe feminin gitu.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Thanksgiving Thursday: My Portfolio (finally) Done!!

Huaa ikudan Thanksgiving Thursday sering bolong2.. >.< Hasrat malas lebih guede daripada hasrat menulis ahaha.. Ckckck..

Yap, kali ini saya sangat amat berterimakasih kepada Tuhan, all because His grace! Finally my portfolio done!! Selama ini gw lagi asek nyantai sambil bikin. Benernya sih bikinnya bisa cepet selsai asalkan niat! Tapi gw tuh bener2 lagi enek banget sama photoshop thingyy.

Ini loh online portfolioku, click here.
All comments and critics very welcome! Please please give me one, i need it to improve my self :D You can comment bellow this post, karena disana cuma untuk dilihat gak bisa untuk diapa2in ahaha.


Lalu, gw juga bersyukur banget sama Tuhan. Dimasa2 pencarian kerja ini.. Udah dapet beberapa tawaran kerja.. Tho is not from design field.. Wong ni portfolio aje belon jadi, ya ga bsa apply2.. Beberapa tawaran itu dateng dari temen, mulut ke mulut.. Sekarang masi didoakan dan bergumul dimana Tuhan mau gw ditempatkan :) Dan juga selama saya nyantai ini ada beberapa job freelancer gitu.. Praise God!

Oke sekiann saja.. saatnya telah tiba gencar kirim resume :) Support me in prayer yah..

This post is written for Thanksgiving Thursday, a program made to remind us to continuously count our blessings. Come and join us, or just simply come and read stories from other people. Click HERE

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Lily's Disneyland Surprise

Another great video :)
This is so lovely.. I cant help to hold my tears..
Surely worth to watch..

Brightannica

Helping a friend of mine promote their business :)
Brightannica is a Registered Education and Migration Agency.
Brightannica's mission is to provide international students with the information they need about education in Australia.
So do pay a visit to their website www.brightannica.com
Their Facebook Fan page too.
And do me some favor, will you? Tell your friend or your cousin too. Yes? :)

Love Only Her

Taken from facebook. I dunno why, I like it.. :D
The one in red color, what I feel so true as a woman haha.
Just wanna share it though..


Boy: I broke up with her.
His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well.. for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart. Because I couldn’t see what was happening. What happened to me?
His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see?
You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened..

Monday, October 24, 2011

5 Important Life Lesson

Thinking Outside The Box. .

You are driving down the road in your car on a wild, stormy night,
when you pass by a bus stop and you see three people waiting for the bus:

1. An old lady who looks as if she is about to die.
2. An old friend who once saved your life.
3. The perfect partner you have been dreaming about.

Which one would you choose to offer a ride to,
knowing that there could only be one passenger in your car?

Think before you continue reading.
This is a moral/ethical dilemma that was once actually used as part of a job application.

You could pick up the old lady, because she is going to die, 
and thus, you should save her first. 
Or you could take the old friend because he once saved your life 
and this would be the perfect chance to pay him back.
However, you may never be able to find your perfect mate again.

The candidate who was hired (out of 200 applicants) had no trouble coming up with his answer.  He simply answered:
"I would give the car keys to my old friend and let him take the lady to the hospital. I would stay behind, and wait for the bus with the partner of my dreams."

1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady.

During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one:

"What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?" 
Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times.
She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name?

I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended,
one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade.
"Absolutely," said the professor.
"In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello."

I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.

2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain

One night, at 11:30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride.

Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car. A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance and put her into a taxicab.

She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him. Seven days went by and a knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A special note was attached.. It read:
"Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. 
The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. 
Then you came along. Because of you, 
I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away.. 
God bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others."

Sincerely,
Mrs. Nat King Cole.

3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve.

In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him.

"How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked.
"Fifty cents," replied the waitress.
The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it.
"Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired.
By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient.
"Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied.
The little boy again counted his coins.
"I'll have the plain ice cream," he said.

The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away.
The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress came back,
she began to cry as she wiped down the table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish, was one quarter, two dimes and five pennies.

You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.

4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path.

In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.

Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded.

After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway.

The peasant learned what many of us never understand! Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.

5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts.

Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness.

The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would
be willing to give his blood to his sister. I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will save her." 

As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded. He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away".

Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor, he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her.

"Work like you don't need the money, 
Dance like no one is watching, 
Sing like no one is listening,
Love like you've never been hurt and 
live life every day as if it were your last"

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, 
but by the moments that takes our breath away"

"The risk takers might not live long, 
but the cautious never live at all"

Friday, October 21, 2011

I Will Wait For You

Heyya, I really recommend all the singles out there to watch this video :)
Very inspiring and a good reminder why we should not compromise the WORD and wait patiently in Him never wasting your time.


Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Just So You Know

I've been single for quite sometimes. And some people around me keep asking me have you find the one? is there someone chasing you? etc. Maybe this post below will answer your questions. Here is some thought about what kind of man I pray for, and my definition about love life. I have nothing to do this saturday. So I edited some of this picture. All credit goes to shutterstock. The quotes all over the internet. I just touch up the color and put it the words into it :) So far.. I love it. And yup, I am typical hopeless romantic girl haha.










New Looks

Yuhu testing 1 2 3.. lagi coba2 ganti background blog nih..
Susahnya minta ampun pake coding2, dan sekarang masih bermasalah pula :(
Headerna ga bisa di klik ke homepage, dan ga scroll kiri kanan kemana2 nih huhu..
Bagaimana2 any comment dengan new look? comments and critics are very welcome hihi
Tapi sayangnya gw ga screenshoot my previous design look :(
Nih, gw attached backgroundnya aja.. tanpa buttonnya dan headernya hiks!!
Bener2 lupa2 :(((((((( Pelajaran oh pelajaran *apaansih*
Oh ya, blog saya tidak bisa jadi secantik itu (pede) tanpa bantuan Veri Eden.
She is the one that helping me with all the coding ggrr ahaha..
Blessed day.

Nah ini dia foto gw sama veri, gak ada yg lebih bagusan T__T
Ternyata kita jaranggg bangett poto b2 aja selalu rame2.
Nih poto pas 3taon lalu i guess? Pas gw jadi ketua church camp, dan lagi play games.
Mereka sengsara gw poto2 WAHAHAHA

Ini poto yg lebih jelasnya.. Gw ma dia jodoh banget bok! Ahaha..
Dua kali retreat, selalu sekelompok barengan.

Retreat tahun lalu.

Retreat tahun ini.

Yak, finally poto kita berdua heheh.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

All Things Work for Good

I got this from Max Lucado email. I subscribe to join his email list.
And this one really touch my heart.. Be blessed!


All Things Work for Good

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Romans 8:28

We know… There are so many things we do not know. We do not know if the economy will dip or if our team will win. We do not know what our spouse is thinking or how our kids will turn out. We don’t even know “what we ought to pray” (Rom. 8:26). But according to Paul, we can be absolutely certain about four things. We know…

1. God works. He is busy behind the scenes, above the fray, within the fury. He hasn’t checked out or moved on. He is ceaseless and tireless. He never stops working.

2. God works for the good. Not for our comfort or pleasure or entertainment, but for our ultimate good. Since he is the ultimate good, would we expect anything less?

3. God works for the good of those who love Him. Behold the benefit of loving God! Make His story your story, and your story takes on a happy ending. Guaranteed. Being the author of our salvation, He writes a salvation theme into our biography.

4. God works in all things. Panta, in Greek. Like “panoramic” or “panacea” or “pandemic.” All-inclusive. God works, not through a few things or through the good things, best things, or easy things. But in “all things” God works.

Puppet in the hands of fortune or fate? Not you. You are in the hands of a living, loving God. Random collection of disconnected short stories? Far from it. Your life is a crafted narrative written by a good God, who is working toward your supreme good.

Thursday, October 06, 2011

Thanksgiving Thursday: Pretty Little Things

Yap, this is my first time joining the Thanksgiving Thursday. Karena minggu2 lalu bawannya males banget ngeblog dan online laptop, apalagi designing my portfolio :S I have too much dealing with my lappie, and i kinda tired of it. Especially my eyes :(

Gw lagi sakit, super dizzy! leher pegel banget sampe ke mata sakitnya >< Terus bahu bagian kanan, keluar bercak2 darah item2 gtu kaya pecah pembuluh darahnya :( Gak tau kenapa, padahal ga ada kerjain hal yg berat2 dan gak stres sama sekali.. Super enjoy malah kalo dibilang! Karena gw lagi take a break belon gencar cari kerjaan and masi mau leha2 dulu sambil jalanin online shop aje.. Ketika gw merasa idup gw super biasa2nya aja and nothing really important is going on.. Gw diingetin lagi ma Tuhan betapa salahnya saya mikir begitu.. Seringkali gw melupakan hal2 kecil yg benernya itu punya impact yg gede. Yap, its true that little things is the main things. And now i want to thanking Him for every pretty little things :)

Dear Daddy,
I just wanna thank you for every air that I breathe. I can breathe freely while in the other hand people need to pay just to get the oxygen.
I wanna thank you for the ability to walk and to stand. Not few people who walking and standing are limited and accompanied by pain. And I wanna be Your tool, I want to always walk in Your ways and run in such a way as to get the prize.
I should thank God for being able to sense our environment. Thanks for the ability to see, hear, smell, taste, and touch. I have all these five without lack of anything.
You are King of all Kings, You can do whatever please You however I wanna thank You for the free will. God has granted us humans the ability to choose how we live our lifes. We are not mindless slaves of God, but rather free individuals who can choose. I thank you for this gift!
I just cant thank You enough for the loving people around me. I do found friend that stick closer than brother, which I knoe I found a rare treasure. And tho my family is not perfect they are the best for me :)
And most of all thank you for Your love! Your love is more than I can ever imagine!! This is the greatest gift of God to us and we need to thank You for loving me, even in my sinfulness.

Truly blessed, Highly favored and Deeply loved
nie♥

This post is written for Thanksgiving Thursday, a program made to remind us to continuously count our blessings. Come and join us, or just simply come and read stories from other people. Click HERE

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Sweet Love Story from The Cross

Kita sebagai cewe especially adalah ciptaan Tuhan yang sangat erat kaitannya dengan emosi. Gampang terharu, gampang tersentuh,gampang menangis, dsb. Tuhan menciptakan kita perempuan begitu mulia dan sangat istimewa, untuk menjadi penolong bagi laki-laki yang sepadan dengan dia (Kejadian 2:20).

Namun sayang sekali dunia merusak image kita sebagai wanita yang sangat dikasihi oleh Allah. Banyak dari film-film Hollywood dan Disney princess mengajarkan kita kalau cinta sejati itu bisa didapat dari seorang pria yang tampan dan mapan lalu tinggal di castle. Yap, gak ada yang salah menikah dengan pria yang tampan dan mapan. Tapi yang salah adalah, kita seringkali sebagai wanita mencari kepenuhan dan kepuasan emosional dari lawan jenis yang sia-sia belaka. Padahal hanya Tuhan yang mampu mengasihi dan memberikan rasa nyaman dengan cinta-Nya yang tak terbatas.

Betapa Dia begitu mengasihi kita, sampai mengirim Anak-Nya mati buat kita, supaya kita bisa hidup bareng Dia lagi kelak (Yohanes 3:16). Dia yang mati di kayu salib demi menebus dosa-dosa kita. Dia yang selalu ada ketika berteriakmemanggil nama-Nya. Dia yang kasih-Nya tak akan habis-habisnya untuk kita. Dia yang tidak jemu-jemu mendengar semua panjatan doa kita.

Siapakah kita ini sampai Raja segala Raja mau mati untuk menebus dosa kita? Who are we that the King cares so much to put all our sins on Himself? We are His precious children. We are perfectly and wonderfully made by Him (Psalm 139:14). Kita sangat amat berharga di mata-Nya.

Mari kita mendekatkan diri lebih lagi kepada Dia, duduk diam di kak-iNya dan mendengarkan firman-Nya, maka kita akan bisa mengenal lebih jauh lagi tentang the TRUE LOVER of our souls. His love is..more than we can ever imagine.. Saya di sini mau ajak kalian para wanita pembaca Pearl Magazine, untuk look up only to Jesus alone. Hanya Yesus yang mampu memenuhi emotional needs kita. Jangan berharap sama manusia, karena kita bisa kecewa dengan berentetan expectations yang kita punya. Tapi percaya sepenuhnya kepada Tuhan maka He will make our path straight! (Proverbs 3:5-6).

Dan gak seperti yang dunia ajarkan untuk mendapatkan approval dari pacar kita, kita harus selalu cantik, makeup-an yang tebal, wangi dsb. Berapa banyak dari kita yang sering denger atau bilang "I love you because you are cute" or "I love you because you take good care of me" or "I love you because you are fun to be with"? This phrase implies that we love conditionally; in other words, we love someone because they fulfill a condition that we require before we can love them.

Our love is conditional, we love based on feeling and emotion that can easily change from moment to moment. But different with our God, God simply loves us because He is love (1 John 4:8). Dia tetap mengasihi kita di saat kita menyakiti hatiNya, God's love transcends the human definition of love to a point that is hard for us to comprehend. His love is really amazing, girls!

Di Roma 5:8 mengatakan: “Akan tetapi Allah menunjukkan kasihNya kepada kita, oleh karena Kristus telah mati untuk kita, ketika kita masih berdosa.” Dalam ayat ini dan dalam Yohanes 3:16, we find no conditions placed on God's love for us. Allah tidak mengatakan, "Segera setelah kamu tidak berdosa, Saya akan mencintaimu" ataupun "Aku akan mengorbankan Anak-Ku jika kamu mau mengasihi-Ku juga."

Bahkan, dalam Roma 5:8, kita menemukan sebaliknya. Tuhan ingin kita tahu bahwa kasih-Nya tanpa syarat, sehingga Ia mengutus putra-Nya, Yesus Kristus, untuk mati bagi kita ketika kita masih berdosa, tidak layak dicintai. Kita tidak harus bebas dari dosa terlebih dahulu, dan kita tidak perlu membuat janji kepadaTuhan sebelum kita dapat mengalami kasih-Nya. Kasih-Nya bagi kita selalu ada, dan karena itu, He did all the giving and sacrificing long before we were even aware that we needed His love.

So ladies, lets each of us longing for this kind of love! Unconditional love! Allah adalah kasih, dan kasih-Nya sangat berbeda dari kasih manusia, kasih Allah itu tanpa syarat, He doesn't love us because we're lovable or because we make Him feel good. Dia mengasihi kita karena Dia adalah kasih. Dia menciptakan kita untuk memiliki hubungan kasih dengan-Nya, dan Dia mengorbankan Anak-Nya sendiri (yang juga rela mati bagi kita) untuk memulihkan hubungan itu.

Written for Majalah Pearl 06 - Fairy Tale In Reality
www.majalahpearl.com

Sunday, October 02, 2011

Stay Close To Me

Sedikit cerita tentang aktivitas gw semenjak gw balik dari Singapore. Uda 2hari nonstop gw nonton ALIAS, gw suka bangetttt sama ini movie! Detektif gtu and buat gw mikir hehe, I do love conan dan sejenisnya deh. Yep, gw bukan tipe cewe yang suka nonton film drama korea, japanese, taiwanese ato bahkan barat yg berbau cinta2an.. why? coz its kinda boring for me. Gw uda perna coba, gw nonton sampe CD ke 5 gw langsung jump ke CD terakhir. LOL.

Gw agak2 terobesesi sama ni film sih, uda perna nonton pas jaman gw smp which is 7years back if im not wrong. Tapi gw ga sempet tamatin. Dari semua film, ini doank nih yg bikin gw ngeces2 ngotot harus tamatin ampe abis! Biasanya mah ga suka banget ma film seri coz cape nontonnya. Terus one day gw perna said to my self, gw pasti akan tamatin nonton ini film ampe abis! suatu saat! harus pokonya ga mau tau!

Eh kemaren itu gw dinner bareng Richard and Maggie, terus deket toko dvd yg guede. Jadilah gw beli terus nonton lah, rada merasa bersalah juga karena gw belon selsain my portfolio T_T dan belon mikirin mau kerja di company apa and what kind of job that i really want. Gw masi pengen selengean, pdhl inside my self uda mulai ga betah duduk diam seharian dirumah dan schedule yg gw plan berantakan juga. Maklum gw ga bisa diem ahuaha :p

Ok, review back 3weeks ago.. Gw liat Axioo post kalo mereka lagi mau hire orang, gw langsung kegirangan banget!! My dream job.. Gw a big fan of their company.. Terus gw mikir, gimana nih tapi barang2 gw including my hardisk yg gw sent dari Singapore belon sampe juga di sini. Kalo nungguin hardisk gw dateng kelamaan ga ya, ntar keburu diambil orang lagi jobnya T_T Jadi ya udalah gw renew my resume, and send my sample of artwork seadanya yg ada di laptop ini..

Dannnn sudah 3minggu ga ada kabar dari axioo hiks.. Uda gw doain, gw juga uda ga ngarep2 sampe stres2 gimana sih. Dulu pas gw di singapore, gw pengen banget kerja di Apixels itu sampe uring2an, ngotot bangett pingin. Sekarang setelah lebih mengenal Tuhan, udah lebih sadar kalo Dya akan memberikan yg terbaik. And I realized, sometimes what I want isn't always what I get, but in the end what I get is so much better than what I wanted which is I get the best from God.

Gw uda menekankan ke diri gw sendiri di masa2 awal2 gw kirim resume ke axioo, gw berdoa ma Tuhan untuk ttp lead and guard my heart pure. Let His will be done, not my will. Di masa penantian minggu2 pertama, I clearly said to my self: If it is mine than its mine.. If no, than God have a better YES for me. all i need to do rite now is happy waiting :)

Banyak yg bilang kalo masuk big company itu harus ada koneksi orang dalem kalo gak susah etc. Sedangkan gw ga kenal sapa2 yg kenal ma axioo :( Walau ada juga yg bilang kalo nunggu kabar kerjaan di indo itu wajar 2-3mggan kalo lamar di company gede.. Ini uda masuk minggu k3, dan gw uda mulai mikir masi perlu ga ya doain ini axioo? or I should just give up? or gw cari2 koneksi gitu? Maybe it will be easier kalo ada orang dalem? The fear inside me start flooding up.

Tadi siang gw nonton Alias lagi, dan gw percaya bukan kebetulan ada bagian yg ngomong gini: God give us serenity to accept the things we cant change, Courage to change the things we can. And wisdom to know the different.

And as I did my quiet time before the Lord tonight, I asked for His guidance in my life. And He spoke very clearly to me..
I alone have the power to do the impossible, stay close to me!

And the peace of God came in an instant :) I still dont know wether i will get the job or not, or what step should I take for the next stage. But I do believe that my God can turn all the impossible to Im possible :) I will do my best and He will do the rest for the best! For God is so mighty.. He will never let us fall lower than our knees!

I will keep believing.. Faith can move a mountain, Hope can heal a heart, & Love can bring a smile to even the most mean person ever.. and the greatest is Love.. So I will stay close with You Lord, and thank you for this lesson :)

Belajar Dari Anjing (2)

Seringkali gw itu ngebanding2in diri gw sama orang lain.. Dan kadangkala itu malah bikin gw makin down, bukannya malah makin semangat untuk jadiin pemacu to be better me. Contohnya, duh gila ya si A keren abis deh bisa kerja di company gede gtu, gajina gede pula.. kok gw ga bsa ya? padahal dari same univ, trs jg gw uda do my very best. Apa yg salah ya dari gw? Dan gw ini orangnya always look down on my self, and to keep positive mind is not easy for me.

Terus kemarin ini, gw lagi manggilin anjing kesayangan gw si enjo. Suara gw kan emang keras dan tegas dan kadang orang salah mengartikan gw galak (iya sih emang tapi dikit aja ;p). Gw panggilin tuh si enjo, eh dia kaga dateng2. Ada bokap gw disana, he said: "manggil enjo tuh mesti pelan2." Ya uda gw change my tone, gw kaya manggil macem godain anak kecil mo main gitu. Ehhh dya langsung dateng. Beda halnya sama si Yoyo, anjing dede gw. Manggil dia mah pelan2 sampe tenggorokan kering juga ga bakal nyamperin! Mesti di tegesin and ditekenin suaranya baru dia mo dateng.. Well, gw ga tau trik2 manggil anjing gw sendiri soalnya I've been away for this 5years until my dad told me so.


Dari sini gw sadar, my dad know the best in term of urusin anjing2 gw and ajarin mrk. Karena bokap gw sama mereka dari mereka kecil, feed them etc. Dya tau si enjo kalo minum itu ga mau dari tempat guguk dia, tapi maunya dari air kamar mandi (gubraks). Dya tau si yoyo itu pagi2 jam 6 pagi bakal naek ke kasur bangunin dya otomatis. He know how to treat and teach them according to their personality.


After kejadian ini gw realized juga, that our God knows the best for us. Because He is our maker. Yah, jalan gw gak harus sama dengan jalan temen gw ato sapapun itu.. I cant compare! I need to stop comparing! All I need to do is believing that my God is in perfect control and I am fearfully and wonderfully made. He has different plan for each of us and our ways are far beyond His ways! Fear not tomorrow, for He is already there. Sometimes all i need to do is.. stop worrying and whatever happens.. happens! for He will never leave me, He will never forsake me.

Mau baca belajar dari anjing part 1? Click here.
Dan ini poto enjo lagi liatin gw saat teduh.. lucu ya duduk manis depan bible kaya nunggu minta didongenin. Wkwkw :p Ayo tebak mana enjo mana yoyo! Yang bsa gw kasi hadiah!

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