Lord I Give You My Heart

This is my desire
To honor You
Lord with all my heart
I worship You
All I have within me
I give You praise
All that I adore is in You

Lord, I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every Breath that I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord, have Your way in me

Thanksgiving Thursday: A New Heart

Kalung saya putus! Yak putus huhu :( Rantenya aja sih yg putus. Ini kalung dari Anita.. Pas gw ulang tahun ke 21 kemaren ini yeayy! And I love it!

Lalu gw cari kalung gw yg lain, karena uda kebiasaan pake kalo gak pake aneh gitu. Kalung snowman gw ga tau dikemanain sama nyak gw. Jadi gw ketemu kalung dari Ex gw.

Kalungnya ini bentuk salib, and to be honest. Dari semua kalung yg paling gw suka ya ini. Gw dari dulu pengen punya kalung salib. Tpi karena background keluarga gw tu budhist mayan kenceng, nyak babe gw ga kasi gw beli. Even if I buy use my own money. Nah kalung ini dikasih pas gw ultah ke 20 :) Toh karena ini dari orang lain ga mgkn donk nyak babe gw ngoceh2. Toh dulu nyak babe gw juga sayang ma Ex gw.

Dan juga kalung ini diamondnya sama ma bentuk cincin gw.. Jadi gw suka banget deh.. Dulu gw exalt him banget karena tumben2nya dya perhatiin sampe detail begitu. Jarang bgt ahaha.. Sounds so sweet huh? Mo tau cerita gw struggle putusnya gimana? Click here.

Masa2 putus itu adalah masa2 yg sulittt banget buat gw.. Ketika akhirnya gw berhasil melupakan dia dan semua kenangan2 bareng dya, yang tersisa adalah ANGER. Yap! Anger!! I wanna do revenge on my own. Gw gak seneng kalo liat dy bahagia or sukses, gw pengen ketawa pas dya sedih! Intinya gw pengen dya merasakan apa yg gw rasakan!! Padahal toh jelas2 di bilble ditulis Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. -Romans 12:15

Gw berdoa bener2 sama Tuhan, Tuhan ani kasih ke Tuhan semua hati ani ya Bapa. Bukan hanya setengah2. Tapi semuanya!! Tolong berikan ani hati yang baru. I believe You are the God who makes all things new! Gw inget banget pernah suatu malem, gw galau tingkat tinggi. Gw doa sama Tuhan, gw bilang ke Tuhan.. Gw gak akan stop sampe You blessed me, and take away all my burden.

Dan kemaren ketika gw ambil nih kalung, dan gw pake sendiri. Udah no feeling at all :) Udah ga ada pikiran, kalo ntar dya or temen2nya liat gw pake ni kalung gimana? Apa ga dipikir gw masi mengharapkan? Ah! Sebodo teuing. Gw juga sempet bingung sndiri.. Dari kapan ya Tuhan ani uda ga ada rasa gini? Uda lupa bener2? Ah ntahlah tapi yg jelas Im really grateful for His faithfulness in my life :D

Gak jarang gw sedih dan mempertanyakan ma Tuhan kenapa harus putus dll. Tapi kalo bukan karena putusnya itu, gw gak akan merasakan kasihNya dan jalanNya yg bgitu sempurna di hidup gw.. For his strength is made perfect in my weakness. Thank God for a new heart..

Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

This post is written for Thanksgiving Thursday, a program made to remind us to continuously count our blessings. Come and join us, or just simply come and read stories from other people. Click HERE

Love Is...

GILING!! Im supposed to working on my job. But very lazy and I do some browsing.. I find his piece of art.. So lovely, so unique and so cute!! Geez.. To see more of his works, click here.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails.

1 Corinthians 13:13
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Snake Or Fish?

Kemaren baca status di FB ci Rina, mamanya Lika. Ini loh my favorite little girl :) Yang poto dya selalu ada dimana2, sampe ke majalah pearl juga pas gw jadi meet a sister nya ;p

She is so lovely.. Ci Rina juga such a great blessings in my life. Im so blessed to know you and your family ci :D

Dya tulis begini di status FBnya:
Bapa manakah di antara kamu, jika anaknya minta ikan dari padanya, 
akan memberikan ular kepada anaknya itu ganti ikan? (Luk 11:11)
Tapi masalahnya.., kita sering berdoa dan meminta ular.., bukan ikan..

Pas baca gw langsung nyengar-nyengir dan mikir, iya juga yah. Gak jarang gw berdoa sama Tuhan.. Tuhan ani mao kerja dimanapun Engkau menempatkan ani Bapa, tapi yah kalo bisa ani mao kerja di A Bapa. Ato kaga, Tuhan ani tau Bapa kalo Engkau gak akan pernah terlambat even one second. Tapiiiii astagaaa uda cape nih nunggunya huhu.. cepetan donk!

Hayoooo bukan kah secara tidak langsung saya juga meminta ular kepada Tuhan? haha. Walo andil2nya awal2nya gw menyerahkan kepada Tuhan tapi akhir2nya gw tarik balik lagi secara sadar ataupun tidak sadar..

Dan ketika gw mendapatkan si ular, dan segalanya tidak sesuai dan semulus yg saya bayangkan. Mulailah saya kepaitan dan ngoceh2 sama Tuhan. Toh kalo di pikir baik2 lagi bukannya gw sendiri yah yg meminta ular kepada Tuhan? NAH LOH!

Dari status Fb ci Rina ini mengingatkan gw kembali kalo percaya ama Tuhan itu harus fullllll ga bisa setengah2. Gak bisa main tarik ulur sama Tuhan. Just do your best and He will do the rest! Im going to trust that You know what You're doing Lord :) 

BR: When God Write Your Love Story

Currently, Im reading this book :) Saya lagi suka baca buku tentang cinta2an nih aihh.. Realized that I fail (the most) in this area of life and I want to learn as many as I can.. Redeeming my single time until one day on God's timing finally I meet my prince charming.. Yah, gw penggemar novel. Apalagi karangan Sandra Brown, Julia Quinn, Agatha Christie, dan kawan2.. Baca novel bisa dalam 2hari selsai, tapi baca buku rohani 2bulan itu masi setengahnya kadang >.<

Well, back to this book again. Kemaren malem pas gw lagi baca2 nih buku, terus this couple of sentence captured my mind.

I finally realized that my lack of trust came directly back to the fact that I didn't truly know Him.. If I could have taken just a little peek into God's father heart, I mean just a little peek. I would have seen how much Je delights over me, how much He cherishes me and adores me.

Ehm.. bener banget yah.. Sering takut bagaimana ke depannya, langkah apa yg harus diambil etc. Kebimbangan, keputusasaan, keraguan, ketakutan semua campur jadi satu. Semua itu dikarenakan karena tidak benar2 tau dan mengenal hati Allah. Toh jelas2 Tuhan bilang, He will never forsake me and He will never leave me.

You must give up the little you're hanging onto now to gain something infinitely great. You must let go of the helm and allow Him to lead.

I pray oh God that You will help me to open up my eyes to things unseen. For I believe that Your ways is far beyond my ways and You always sees the bigger picture.

Masih banyak lagi yg bagus2 dari buku ini, penasaran? Beli dan baca sendiri ayokk.. Oh ya, kemaren itu gw juga abis baca buku Waiting and Dating by Myles Munroe. Giling, ini buku top markotop deh. Dari semua buku relationship2 yg gw baca, so far ini yg menang gelar terbagus (di kamus gw). LOL! Tapi beneran bagus deh :) So detail and inspiring.