Psalm 91

Psalm 91 is my favorite chapter of all chapters in the psalms :)

1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the LORD,
“He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”
3 Surely He will save you from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with His feathers,
and under His wings you will find refuge;
His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you say, “The LORD is my refuge,”
and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For He will command His angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 “Because he loves me,” says the LORD,
“I will rescue him; I will protect him,
for he acknowledges My name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
and show him My salvation.”

What Faith Can Do

Gw mau cerita tentang pergumulan yg lagi gw alamin, sekarang kan gw lagi cari2 kerja nih. Portfolio udah jadi dan kemaren Kamis gw uda mulai sent out my CV and sample art works. Gw cuma sent ke 7 company so far.
Wedding company:
1. Axioo
2. Edward Suhadi
3. Little Collins
Design company:
4. Nuage
5. Bentuk
6. Agung Podomoro
7. Transmahagaya

Kenapa gw apply kerja cuma sedikit? Soalnya ini company dimana gw bener2 mau masuk. Itu nomor yg gw list berurutan tuh sesuai my wish ;p They are big company, I aim high. Pertama-tama gw cuma apply kerja coba di company yg gw bener2 mau masuk dulu, kalo ga dapet ya uda baru gencar kirim kemana aja.

The reason why I want to work there, bukan karena my PRIDE. Wah kerja di company gede enak ya blabla terkenal. Tapi karena He give the passion, the desire that so strong. Nah tau darimana ini desire dari Tuhan? Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4 Gw bener-bener bergumul sama Tuhan tentang pekerjaan, dimana Dia mau gw ditempatkan dsb.

I truly know and believe bukan karena gede ato hebatnya suatu company sampe kita bisa say God is good and amazing. He is ALWAYS good! Even in small company, we can say that. The most important is kita menjalani apa yg Tuhan kasih for our mission. We work there for a mission, to spread the gospel :) Wherever kita ditempatkan, dan every little things that happened in our life showed how great and amazing is our God! Dont have to wait ampe sesuatu besar terjadi to realize that!

And praise God! 3 dari company di atas call me for interview.. Axioo, Edward Suhadi, and Nuage. Axioo reply di hari Kamis juga, sedangkan Edward Suhadi dan Nuage ini besoknya hari Jumat. Padahal biasanya kata temen gw kalo big company bisa sampe 2-3minggu baru dipanggil. Axioo bilang kalo dya lagi arrange the schedule, and will let me know soon. Sedangkan yg 2company ini hari selasa gw interview. Pray for me yah :)

Everything sounds so good isnt it? But me! Im lack of give thanks. This evening I cried and cried.. There's really a big burden in my heart. And I prayed to God, I said.. God are You sure I can do this? Why I think I cant? Dan gw mulai takuttt banget, takut kalo ga betah, takut kalo gajinya ga meet my expectation, takut kalo lembur sampe kaya orgil, and the biggest fear as designer.. I scared that I will lost my creativity.. and dont have any fresh idea anymore :(
Karena jujur aja beberapa hari ini gw lagi jenuh banget sama design thingy, its like there's no joy and peace like I used to do. And I start thinking.. Apa gw salah ya ambil jurusan as graphic designer? DANG!!

Dan gw ini really a big fan of axioo. Dan ada satu jobscope di axioo yg gw suka banget, baca disini deh. Tapi sepertinya mereka intrevw gw as graphic designer. Gw mulai sedih dah.. Yah, I miss that chance.. padahal gw suka bgttt sama job scopenya. Dan ketakutan gw yg lain adalah, kata temen gw axioo itu kalo kabarin hasil interview bisa 3mingguan. Terus gw mikir, selasa ini intrvew, kalo keterima dan nanya kapan siap kerja gw akan jawab 14Nov kan pas tuh tengah bulan. Nah sedangkan sampe sekarang axioo belon ada kabar! Gimana kalo andaikata gw keterima di company lain dan harus kasi kabar asap? Haruskah gw terima offer mereka dan give up axioo ato nunggu axioo dengan chance belon tau juga hasilnya keterima or kaga??

I know I know Im thinking too much and so much negativity play around in my mind.
And I lost my faith, hey where's my faith?! Gw sadar bangettt kalo Im holding too tight and my dreams are causing me to be frustrated :(

Terus come acros this video from a friend of mine. See and watch, believe me its worth every second!



Makes me realize, that my faith in me can do nothing but His faith in me can do everything! He is the God who turns IMPOSSIBLE become I'M POSSIBLE. And how many times I have been force to my knees realizing theres no other place to go. Ya iyalah, gw uda bener2 ga tau lagi mo gmn. Gak mungkin kan ngotot2 sama axioo suru interview gw cepet2 dan kabarin cepet2. Ya udalah sekarang pasrah aja, if it is mine than its mine! If not, then He has a better YES for me! I will not give up on my dreams but I will release my worry and frustration.

Proverbs 23:18
There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.

Psalm 23
A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,
3 He refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil, for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Empowered 21

Yak, saya baru pulang dari Asia Empowered 21. Banyak pembicara2 dari luar negri gitu deh, gabungan dari beberapa gereja. Terus juga banyak dari negara2 Asia lain yang ikutan kaya Filipin, Thailand, Myanmar, China, Taiwan, Hongkong. Sekitar 5000 orang deh.. Biayanya 500.000 perorang, dan I get it for free :D Soalnya temen gw dapet quota gitu untuk 10orang kalo gak salah, terus dia ajak2in deh..

Nah ini temen gw si Yuyu yang ngajakin gw :D Thank you so much loh yu! Btw, makanannya juga enak2 banget. Hokben lah, terus ada KFC. Ini KFC ye satu orang dapet 2ayam 2nasi ajegileeee. All for free loh :) Uda included..

Ini berlangsung selama 25-28October 2011. Dan sessionnya itu beda2, sehari ada 3session. Pagi, siang, dan sore. Tiap session itu juga ada beberapa topic jadi bebas mo pilih yang mana gitu. Gw ma temen2 gw beberapa pisah sih soalnya kita pilih yg beda2. Ada dua session yang paling nancep buat gw :) Sekarang gw share yang pendek dulu aje ye soalnya eke tepar bok.

By Billy Gilson
Dia bilang gini singkatnya.. Mungkin dalam hidup kita, kita menghadapi beberapa masalah. Ntah itu masalah dengan orang lain, masalah di pekerjaan, masalah dengan hati kita, etc. Ketika cobaan terus menerus datang dan memukul, there's time when the evil one will say: you are exhausted, just give up. You wont see your family get saved, you wont see your dreams come true. so just give up. Then we need to say to evil: Yes Im tired, but God is not exhausted! For He who is in me is greater than anything!

Jlebb nanceppp bangett. Ahaha. Saat itu juga gw langsung bilang ke Tuhan, Yes God Im tired about finding a job and sometimes I am really tired praying for my family, coz I dont see any changes or movement. But I know God, You love my parents more than I love them..

Satu lagi yg bagus kotbahnya itu tentang servant leadership by Manny Carlos. Besok2 saya share deh yah :) Uda mau bobok.. Yang jelas saya ga nyesel dah pergi, cape tapi it was worth it! :D

Oh ya ini poto eke sama temen2 yg pergi pas itu :D
Take one, kaya di film final desnitation yah LOL super blur!

Oh ya, karena itu tempat rame banget dan kita pisah2 perginya and name tagnya tuh ketuker2 gitu, mao kontek2an juga signalnya parah teuing dah. Untung gw ga ilang >.< jadinya hari terakhir itu gw pake nama GRACE :) Temen gw cewe ada yg dapet nama temen cowoknya. Paulus Anggun, Nathan, dan yg paling kocak ada yg namanya Ade Rock. Terus pas sesi doain orang ga dikenal gitu, temen gw ditanyain kamu yg bener namanya Paulus? Wakaka ngakak langsung, jelas2 dya cewe feminin gitu.

Thanksgiving Thursday: My Portfolio (finally) Done!!

Huaa ikudan Thanksgiving Thursday sering bolong2.. >.< Hasrat malas lebih guede daripada hasrat menulis ahaha.. Ckckck..

Yap, kali ini saya sangat amat berterimakasih kepada Tuhan, all because His grace! Finally my portfolio done!! Selama ini gw lagi asek nyantai sambil bikin. Benernya sih bikinnya bisa cepet selsai asalkan niat! Tapi gw tuh bener2 lagi enek banget sama photoshop thingyy.

Ini loh online portfolioku, click here.
All comments and critics very welcome! Please please give me one, i need it to improve my self :D You can comment bellow this post, karena disana cuma untuk dilihat gak bisa untuk diapa2in ahaha.

Lalu, gw juga bersyukur banget sama Tuhan. Dimasa2 pencarian kerja ini.. Udah dapet beberapa tawaran kerja.. Tho is not from design field.. Wong ni portfolio aje belon jadi, ya ga bsa apply2.. Beberapa tawaran itu dateng dari temen, mulut ke mulut.. Sekarang masi didoakan dan bergumul dimana Tuhan mau gw ditempatkan :) Dan juga selama saya nyantai ini ada beberapa job freelancer gitu.. Praise God!

Oke sekiann saja.. saatnya telah tiba gencar kirim resume :) Support me in prayer yah..

This post is written for Thanksgiving Thursday, a program made to remind us to continuously count our blessings. Come and join us, or just simply come and read stories from other people. Click HERE

Lily's Disneyland Surprise

Another great video :)
This is so lovely.. I cant help to hold my tears..
Surely worth to watch..