Living A Good Life to Leaving A Good Life

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Suara alarm hapeku bunyi.. Jam 8pagi. Uh males banget bangun..
Balik badan ganti posisi tidur, dan tiba-tiba..
EUCHHHH sakitt banget kakiku..

Jadilah aku bangun, mandi dan siap-siap. Nunggu bus dateng dan naik terus stop turun lalu jalan ke Raffles Hospital. Level 13, anthropology center huhu..

Yak, theres something really wrong with my left leg. Kaki kiriku gak bisa nekuk dan gak bisa lurusin lurus banget, rasanya super ngilu dan sakittt banget! Gak tau kenapa, padahal gak jatoh ato keseleo. Buat jalan sih no problemo at all. Aneh bin ajib. Sakitnya uda dari tanggal 20June kemaren sampe sekarang ini. Jadi bener-bener decide mau ke dokter deh and make an appointment.

Jujur sejujurnya males banget ke dokter, soalnya anti banget.. Kalo gak sakit-sakit banget paling ogah ke dokter, tapi karena ini masalah kaki jadi ngeri dan ga berani macem-macem. Benernya aku belajar dan agak trauma dari kejadian si mama. Mamaku duluuu banget 6taon yang lalu pernah jatoh dari motor, ketiban motor gitu deh kaki kanannya, sakit dikit biru gtu. Terus didiemin gak dipeduliin. Eh 2tahun kemudian, kakinya getting worse dan di cek ke dokter ternyata tulang rawan di dengkulnya uda gak ada ngeri uy jadi sampe skrg uda di operasi 2x padahal dya masi 47tahun loh :( And thats why my mom keep pushing me to see doctor and she always said "I dont want you to regret later like I did now"

HUHU jadilah aku tiduran di kasur sang dokter, dipijit-pijit dengkul kiri dan dengkul kanan. Dengkul kanan perfectly fine, yang kiri? Jangan tanya pegang dikit aja sakit euy!!

Doctor asked me several questions:
-. What are you working as? Do you stand often?
Graphic designer, nope my job requires me to sit almost of the time.
-. Do you do sports regularly?
Never at all, at least these 3months.
-. Are you falling or slipping?
Nope
-. Any pain during walking or running?
Walking nope, but running I dont know because I seldom run.
-. Do you have allergic with any medicine?
Nope

Terus dokternya menjelaskan keadaan gw, kalo gw itu bukan injury tapi living a good life. Alamak! Dia bilang otot kaki aku itu gak dibiasain olah raga and tiba-tiba disuru lakuin hal yang berat jadi kaget, terus soft bone nya gak kuat jadi keluarin cairan dan cairannya itu menjalar ke belakang dengkul dan nyebabin gak nyaman plus rasa sakit ketika jongkok dan lurusin kaki.

HUAAAAAA ngerii amat yak penjelasannya! Cairan apa pula? Panic at the disco! Terus aku tanya ke dokternya, tapi dok kenapa cuma yg kiri dan yang kanan perfectly fine? and he answered: It will take short period of time to spread to your right leg. Untuk liat hasilnya dan tindak lanjut saya anjurkan ambil X-ray tapi X-ray juga percuma gak bisa kasih liat jelas. Jadi MRI aja. Dan gw shocked tambahan! MRI tuh gak boleh sembarangan dilakuin coz yg gw baca katanya bisa ngerangsang sel tumbuhnya kanker dan biayanya mahal bo!

Jadi aku dibikinin appointment for next saturday, the cost is 700-1100SGD for MRI left kneel only. Terus telpon papa cerita, papa cuma dari sana uda panik terus aduh.. aduh aduh gitu terus.. :( Dia suru MRI juga secepatnya dan gak bisa didiamin. Tapi aku ngotot mahal paaaa di indo aja cuma setengah harga (perhitungan emang gw haha) lagian ani takut MRI. Papa bilang kelamaan tunggu ani pulang. Terus bargain lagi, ya udalah uda dikasi obat, liat seminggu kalo masi sakit banget ya uda pergi tapi kalo kagak di indo aja MRInya.

Yak, saya memang tau kalo kesehatan itu tidak bisa dibeli jadi MRI ajalah harga segitu gak ada apa-apanya dibanding kesehatan fullll! Tapiiii aku bener2 mikir, aku minta appointment seminggu lagi karena aku bener2 mo fokus doain minum obat teratur dan see how, kalo emang masi sakit ok I will go for MRI. Walo sebenernya gak jelas aja apa yang mau di MRI, temen aku dulu disuru dokter cek up sana sini soalnya dya kalo duduk bagian punggung kanannya sakit jadilah disuru X-ray cek darah blabla abis 400SGD tau-tau semua hasil keluar dan dokter cuma bilang itu MASUK ANGIN. JRENG JENG JRENGGG.

Duluu juga pernah sekitar tahun lalu, bahu kananku itu bisa bunyi cetak cetek kaya kita pegel terus tekuk-in jari-jari bunyi kan tuh hehe. Terus somehow kadang kalo aku move itu dadaku bisa sakit. Aku tau something wrong with my shoulders. Because I used to brought a lots of heavy stuff, my laptop, and my school stuff (A3 papers, drawing book, my print file, etc). Terus kasi tau si papa eh si papa bebisaan langsung telp raffles dan booking appointment sama dokter jantung! YAK dokter JANTUNG! Astaga punya astaga! Jadilah aku sama housemateku si vebriana ke sana, begitu masuk ruang tunggu semua uda kakek nenek. Masuk ke dokter si dokter sampe kaget ngapain masi muda kesini? Malu dah =='' Terus cek up, X-ray cek darah sampe di pakein kabel2 gitu kaya di film2 di tempel kabel di jidat sekitar muka. Terus hasil keluar semua PERFECTLY FINE! Detak jantung ok! Hasil darah ok! Tekanan darah ok! Terus dokternya juga suruh untuk MRI mungkin struktur tulang. Hayah abis 500dolar buat begono aja.

Pulang-pulang ngoceh sama papa, kenapa book dokter jantung sih uda dibilang ani mau ke general doctor dulu kan cek up doank. GGGRRR. Papa malah bilang, daerah dada kalo gak jantung ya paru-paru. Ya uda sekarang ke specialist paru-paru sana cek up. No thanks dad! Anak ga tau diri!!! Padahal kalo dipikir tuh beneran deh, it shows how much he loved me sampe langsung di booked yg ke PRO! wkwkwkw.

Terus pas kemaren ini mumpung lagi balik indo, ke dokter di RS Puri sekalian temenin dedeku yg abis operasi cabut pen patah kaki. Terus dokter suru aku bungkuk, dya megang bagian kanan dan dya bilang oh kamu tulangnya miring. X-ray deh. Hasil X-ray uda keluar dan emang nunjukin miring sedikit. Penyebabnya yah emang dari sananya uda begitu dan keturunan. Si mama dipanggil dan disuru bungkuk juga terus bener sama miring juga. Nama penyakitnya scoliosis.

Gw tanya juga, kenapa baru sekarang sakitnya dulu kagak? Padahal kata dokter uda dari kecil strukturnya begini? As we grow older, makin banyak beban yg harus ditanggung dan akan ada keluhan. Otot-otot yg ga kuat bawa barang kuat dll. Semuanya depend sama orang and kemampuan masing-masing juga. Contohnya si mama bengkok juga tapi ga ribut pegel tuh. Terus dokternya bilang salah satu buat sembuhinnya itu olahraga berenang. Terus aku dalih hah berenang dimana di singapore?? Dia ada suggest satu alat juga untuk narik badan gitu biar bantu ilangin rasa sakitnya sedikit, harus dipake setelah bangun tidur dan pas mao bobok. Harus rajin pakenya biar efektip! Aku beli deh, di indo pake rajinnn tapi itu kan ga bisa dibawa ke Singapore kan gede jadi gimana donk? Berenang sama sapa disinii??

Yah maybe its true that im living a good life. Gak pernah olahraga dan selalu di zona nyaman. Dari kejadian ini bener2 belajar segala sesuatu yang berlebihan itu gak baik! Berlebihan santaiii jadilah pemalas, berlebihan kerja jadilah workaholic dan cinta uang, etc. Dalam kehidupan Kristen kita juga harus di cek, apa ada yg menjadi comfort zone kita? Sehingga itu menjadikan Tuhan bukan prioritas utama lagi? Udah keenakan ada ini itu, punya ini itu jadi keberadaan Tuhan udah gak penting banget dan udah gak nomor satu!

Day by days during my quiet time I always ask God to shake my comfort zone, to remind me always that He is the only one that I need and without Him im nothing! Eh bener loh, simple prayer tapi bener-bener show kalo dihidup ini banyak masalah dan gak gampang karena itu we need His strength His joy His mercy and His love to pass all these things :) Ada aja kejadian yg harus aku pikirkan mateng-mateng dan harus menyertakan Tuhan atau ada hal lain yang aku pikir aku BISA tapi ujung-ujungnya harus bertekuk lutut minta ampun sama Dia, bahwa HANYA Dia yang sanggup. Dan sekali lagi disini DIAJAR sekaligus DIHAJAR! Leave your comfort zone ani! And do exercise. Your body is My Holy temple!

Saya sekarang bernjanji akan olahraga dan exercise kecil-kecilan. Stretching misalnya yg simple tapi saya pastikan saya bergerak dan mengeluarkan keringat! Kalo ada kolam renang dekat rumah saya akan pergi walaupun itu sendiri :( Dan mulai cari gym yg provide swimming pool. And please pray for me. I really dont want to do MRI. I scared :( Hope after finish this medicine will getting better and perfectly heal! Amen :)

God's Table Requires Table Manners

You undoubtedly felt awkward the first time you had to learn which fork to use. But with that knowledge you can enter any dining experience with confidence. The same is true when you dine at God's table. At first it seems difficult. But learning the right manners makes it possible for you to be in any situation and please the Father.

Table manners at God's table:

Read the menu.
You must spend time reading what God has prepared. Read your Bible, meditate on the Word. It will give you strength and illumination according to God's plan for your life. It will keep you on course and remind you of your responsibilities in order to fulfill the plan of God.

Accept the seating.
God has a place for you - in Him - that far outweighs anything the pleasures of this life have to offer. The fleshly, carnal attitudes of your world will be a constant source of contention in this life. But God calls you to sit in His kingdom, not in the world. Satan will try to convince you to take a lesser seat, that those serving God have more time, money, or talent than you. He wants you to measure flesh against flesh. Don't listen to him. Sit in the seat of inheritance that God has waiting for you.

You have to do your own chewing.
Too many Christians expect God to take out a spoon and dish up the blessing for them. He is supposed to place it in our mouths, work our jaws to chew it up, and help us swallow it. We want God to do everything. The fact is that you have responsibility in God's sovereign world.

Finish the meal.
John 3:16 tells us, God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son. Some believe that because God has already come and died for the sins of the world, they don't have to do anything else. However, it's important to finish the phrase regarding man's responsibility: whosoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life. You must come to Him in order to receive the forgiveness that He purchased for you.

Count the fruit.
If you are not willing to bear fruit for Him, then He is not obligated to answer your requests, even if you ask things in His name. Jesus declares, Everything that the Father gives me will come to me, and anyone who comes to me I will never drive away (John 6:37). The Holy Spirit inspires us to go to Jesus and do what He asks of us. His sovereignty makes the first move toward us, but because He gave us free will, we must move toward Him as well.

Entertaining Angels

One stormy night many years ago, an elderly man and his wife entered the lobby of a small hotel in Philadelphia. Trying to get out of the rain, the couple approached the front desk hoping to get some shelter for the night.

"Could you possibly give us a room here?" the husband asked. The clerk, a friendly man with a winning smile, looked at the couple and explained that there were three conventions in town.

"All of our rooms are taken," the clerk said. "But I can't send a nice couple like you out into the rain at one o'clock in the morning. Would you perhaps be willing to sleep in my room? It's not exactly a suite, but it will be good enough to make you folks comfortable for the night."

When the couple declined, the young man pressed on. "Don't worry about me; I'll make out just fine," the clerk told them. So the couple agreed.

As he paid his bill the next morning, the elderly man said to the clerk, "You are the kind of manager who should be the boss of the best hotel in the United States. Maybe someday I'll build one for you."

The clerk looked at them and smiled. The three of them had a good laugh.

As they drove away, the elderly couple agreed that the helpful clerk was indeed exceptional, as finding people who are both friendly and helpful isn't easy.

Two years passed. The clerk had almost forgotten the incident when he received a letter from the old man. It recalled that stormy night and enclosed a round-trip ticket to New York, asking the young man to pay them a visit.

The old man met him in New York, and led him to the corner of Fifth Avenue and 34th Street. He then pointed to a great new building there, a palace of reddish stone, with turrets and watchtowers thrusting up to the sky.

"That," said the older man, "is the hotel I have just built for you to manage."

"You must be joking," the young man said.

"I can assure you I am not," said the older man, a sly smile playing around his mouth.

The older man's name was William Waldorf Astor, and the magnificent structure was the original Waldorf-Astoria Hotel.

The young clerk who became its first manager was George C. Boldt. This young clerk never foresaw the turn of events that would lead him to become the manager of one of the world's most glamorous hotels.

The Bible says that we are not to turn our backs on those who are in need, for we might be entertaining angels.

Life is more accurately measured by the lives you touch than the things you acquire.

I Will Paint You A Rainbow

I'll paint you a rainbow as a gift from me,

Then hang it from heaven for the whole world to see.

On a canvas of love I'll cover your fears,

With a soft brush I'll dry all your tears.

I'll paint you a rainbow with feelings so deep,

My stroke will be gentle, my touch you may keep.

On a palette of words I will tenderly blend,

Colorful thoughts with bright verses to send.

I'll paint you a rainbow in reds, blues and gold,

Stretched like loving arms ready to enfold.

And deep in the center of the most vibrant hue,

I'll etch from memory the essence of you.

I'll paint you a rainbow, a bridge to my heart,

So loneliness and pain can begin to depart.

Just look up at the sky when life hits a bend,

I painted a rainbow for YOU my friend.

When A Thunder Comes

Is only You Father taking my picture..

I woke up too early this morning because of heavy raining outside.. I dislike thunderbolt alot.. Ask me why? Im not so sure too why..
So I woke up, I sat and took my bible.. I started to do my quiet time, I prayed. I asked God to relieve the storm outside so I could go back to sleep again :p and also to relieve the storm that is in my heart and mind. Humm..
And I flip over my diary.. Suddenly come over to this page..

02 May 2011 - Church Camp day two..
Speaker Dr Van

When a thunder comes.. is only You Father taking my picture..
I will never forget the stories that he told us..

First illustration
Alkisah di malam hari seorang ayah sedang menceritakan dongeng kepada putri ciliknya untuk menemani sang kekasih hati tidur.. Setelah mencium kening sang putri, ayah mengatakan "selamat tidur putri kecilku, I love you" dan mematikan lampu.
Sang ayah pergi menemui bunda di dapur, dan mengadakan perbincangan sederhana seputar hari yang mereka lewati.. Tiba-tiba hujan deras mengguyur rumah mereka bergantian dengan kilat dan sambar petir..
"Aku pergi melihat keadaan putri kecil dahulu" kata sang ayah.. Siapa tau dya ketakutan dan tidak bisa tertidur. Beranjak lah sang ayah ke kamar putrinya, melihat ke dalam kamar si kecil..
Lampu kamar masih gelap namun di kasur kosong, si putri kecil tak ada di kasurnya. Ayah melihat ke kiri dan kanan mencari keberadaan sang putri.. Kemanakah dya?
NAH! There she is.. Si putri kecil berdiri tepat di depan jendela kamarnya yang tirainya terbuka lebar sambil merentangkan kedua tangannya..
"Sedang apa kamu disana sayang? Kenapa tidak kembali tidur? Tidakkah kamu takut akan petir itu?"
Sang putri kecil menjawab.. "Aku berdiri disini karena Tuhan sedang mengambil foto diriku ayah.."

One thing I have learn from this story.. We need to have heart like little children.. have faith like little children.

Matthew 18:3
Then he said, "I tell you the truth, unless you turn from your sins and become like little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven."

Abraham go to the promise land by going not knowing, walking not knowing! Sometimes is very hard for us to determine God's ways. But God have the perfect ways and the perfect timing. Not one second earlier, not one second late. God is in perfect timing and perfect purpose!

God knows what He is doing and He is always in control. I know and I experienced it that following God is not easy and sometimes very hard! But everything that happen in our life is not coincidence but God's coincidence. Whatever situation you face rite now, remember that God is always in perfect control!

Second illustration
Setiap kita memiliki mimpi dan harapan yang kita genggam. Semakin erat kita menggenggam mimpi itu di jari-jari kita, semakin sulit untuk Tuhan menarik satu-satu jari kita dan akan sangat menyakitkan.. Dimulai dari Tuhan menarik membuka jari kelingkingmu, jari manis, dst.

God want to educate us in His thinking, the more hard we keep our will, it is very hard for God to open our mind. Because we against His will. God will take anything that block us from our faith, from His purpose. He him selves will make sure that His calling will come to past! His calling is irrevocable.

Walking with God is not always easy.. sometimes is scary and dangerous. God promises a safe landing but not a calm passage. In this journey of life, we need to set our eyes on God alone! Because nothing last forever, forever is one God's own! He is the only one last forever. Our God is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. He is reliable and faithful!

Hebrew 13:8
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

There's something along the way in our journey that God want us to learn, that He want us to understand. God always working behind our scene for us. He know the perfect time, He know the best way. He created each of use uniquely, we all have different capacity.

1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

When God give the words we need to obey! Obedience comes from true revelation and revelation comes from true obedience. Everyday we step out say to God, God i want to obey You and give me Your wisdom and Your revelation. Keep walking, keep going and keep trusting! :)

God never promised
A life without pain,
Laughter without tears
Or sun without rain.
But He did promise
Strength for the day,
Comfort for the tears
And light for the way,
And for all who believe
In His Heaven above
He rewards their faith
In His everlasting love.